dreaming of you // reddie au

five

"bye mommy"
eddie sluggishly walked out the door, his backpack unusually heavy today. he planned on skipping classes today, i mean, whats the worse that could happen? He didn't care about getting in trouble anymore, as he had other things to worry about.
its been exactly two weeks since eddies last dream of richie... the one where he died. he still couldnt bring himself to think about it, as it was too upsetting for him. he loved the black haired, huge eyed boy he saw every night with his entire heart, but now he would have no way of knowing if he ever liked him back.

stanley, beverly and eddie walked into the Derry amusement park. the brunette started feeling nauseous from just looking at the roller coasters.
"are we seriously doing this right now"
"oh lighten up a bit eds"
eddie frowned as he heard the nickname trashmouth would always call him.
"my mom would fucking kill me if she knew i was going to go upside down in the fucking air, KILL ME GUYS! and dont call me .. eds"
"Eddie, its not that bad when youre in the air. it goes by fast too, so enjoy it"
"how am i supposed to fucking enjoy it when ill probably throw up on the person infront of me?"
stan and beverly laughed, as eddie was too busy worrying about what his mom would think, not even acknowledging the fact the line was getting closer and closer.
the short boy grabbed his inhaler before touching the railing next to him
"do you know how much fuckin germs we are touching right now?! we are probably going to get a virus! my mom-"
"its fine, its just some harmless germs, butt head. do you know how many germs you consume when you eat food and breathe?"
eddies face scrunched up, he looked disgusted.
"stop!"
"ayee look eduardo"
eddie rolled his eyes as he looked to where the bird loving boy next to him was pointing
"oh shit oh fuck"
he gasped at once

it was finally time to get in the roller coaster seats.
eds was trembling as he pulled the lap bar down hesitantly.
'click, click, click'
he tapped his feet on the ground in fear.
"its okay eddie!"
beverly held eddies hand. the three were always super close like that. there were two boys sitting next to them, but none of the three were really paying attention to them.
the roller coaster finally started moving, going slowly up... and quickly down, as most do.
"FUCK SHIT FUCK STANLEY"
"shut up pussy, look at the view"
"I CANT! I CANT I CANT I CANT"
beverly smiled at eddie, holding his hand tighter, trying her best to comfort and reassure him.
eddie tried to reach for his inhaler in his fanny pack, but of course they were moving at too much of a rapid pace for that. all of his shit would have fallen out if it had opened.
"I CANT BREATHE BEVERLY I CANT FUCKING BREATHE"
he glanced over at his friends, who were somehow peacefully enjoying the ride, their arms up in the air. as for himself, he was scared absolutely shitless. hes never been on a roller coaster before, and after this, he never planned on going on one again. it felt like his soul was leaving his body as the seat jerked and whipped his small body all over the place. he felt his heart beating almost outside of his chest. they finally came to a stop.
"fuck fuck fuck shit fuck fuck what the fuck what the fuck stanley holy fuck oh my god i almost DIED"
eddie whimpered as he was still trying to process what just happened in such a short amount of time.
"you look like you shit your pants" beverly joked
"you ok, dude?"
he looked over in shock at the jet black haired boy as he adjusted his huge glasses
"richie?!"