Misery [T. Higgs] ✔

in another life

Tears stream out of James Potters eyes when he holds his daughter for the second time in his life in his arms. Just this time she is small. So small. But its Her green eyes. And its Her freckles. Exactly the same as the first time she was born. She was just as beautiful as back then. And she would be beautiful once again. A small squeal mixed with a yawn leaves her lips. He smiles as her small hands, barely large enough to hold even a finger of his, reach for his face and she begins to smile, then giggle. The nurses never had a baby giggle so early after its birth before.

"What's her name?" "Helena. Helena Lily Potter.", James says, without a moments hesitation. Her brilliant toothless smile beams up at him, when she suddenly starts levitating in his arms, flying up to the ceiling and sits up there. While the nurses panic the couple only chuckles. "Come here, Helena. Come to me." Remus Lupin, who walks into the room coos at the girl, while the nurses are still too panicked to question how he'd known the name without being there as it was given to her. "OR.. come to uncle Sirius." "As if! Uncle Regulus all the way!" "How about aunty Marlene..?" Helena looks at them curiously from her large green eyes, then gently floats into Remus Lupins arms who smiles at her. "See? You already know by instinct who is your godfather, hu?" She giggles and cuddles into the mans arm, making everybody coo in adoration. "Look at that. Your daughter is adorable as a babe and a beauty when growing up. Be happy she takes after her mother and not you, you bloody ugly twat." Lily, still in bed, laughs and James sends a playful glare towards his best friend and brother Sirius. "Now I know why Remus is her godfather and not you, arse." "Don't you two dare curse in front of my poor child!", Lily says and they all share a laugh and a few happy tears. There she was.. again. As if she'd never been gone.

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"Come on, Harry. Aren't you excited for your first year at Hogwarts.." "Yeah. Sure I am. But I feel like people will always compare me to you. The great time traveling Helena Potter who saved the world and sacrificed her life for it, then was reborn.." Helena chuckles. "No worries, baby bro. I'll jinx any idiot that says something like that into oblivion for you." "Even if it is your boyfriend..?" Helena blushes. "Well.. I'll make sure he gets some form of punishment if he dares. I promise." Harry grins and wraps one arm around his sister under the proud gaze of both their parents and their godfathers. "Hey Helena!" "Yeah, dad?" "If I hear from Harry that you and your damned boyfriend did anything more than kissing I'll jinx him into the next year!" The girl flushes bright red. "Dad! I wasn't planning on it!!! Why would you say this!?" "Because I know that you love him. And I just want you to stay my little girl a while longer. Its bad enough I have to share the spot of the most important male in your life already.." "But you always had to. There's Remus and Harry too, dad." James hides his face in his hands. "Merlin have mercy.." "Hel." With glowing eyes the girl smiles at her three years older boyfriend jogging over to her, across the platform. "Go already. I don't want to be in the middle if you guys kiss.", Harry says, fake gagging and Helena laughs at her little brother, before jumping into her boyfriends arms, wrapping her legs around his torso and hugging him tightly. "How was Egypt with the Weasleys?" He visibly cringes. "Egypt was great. The constant pranking however..." Helena laughs loudly and gives him a 'my condolences' kiss on his lips. "Hey Harry!" Ron Weasley hurries over to his childhood friend and they grin at each other. "Alright. Mom. Dad. Uncle Remus. Uncle Sirius.. We are off. I'll see you in your dreams, like always, right?"
"Like always, fawn.." She smiles at the nickname she received for the shape of her animagus. Unregistered of course. She was a golden furred doe. But her father decided she'd be called a fawn regardless due to him being a stag and her mother having a doe as her patronus. They board the red train and take a seat amongst her friends.
Everything was as it should be.
She knows that apparently this is thanks to her.
She didn't have many memories of her first life. she just remembered Terence's eyes, her favourite Professor Severus Snape, her godfather Remus Lupin and a few sentences in a voice that was hers but also wasn't.
'I'll let earth bury me in all my favorite colors. I should have died years ago. I should have died with you and mother. The hardest part of this is leaving you. Dying doesn't scare me anymore. I wished for nothing but death almost all my life. Don't worry.. Just don't ever forget.. no matter if I will be born again.. I have loved you, Harry and mom until my last breath.'