i'll be good // e.d

9. glady

^song : desperado/rihanna (repeat, highly recommended)

lana's pov

6:45

we parked a few houses down from julia's so it'd be easier to leave. we all looked great in my opinion. ethan looking sexy, i looked pretty cute which i never thought. lex looked adorable as usual and gray just looked causal with tight black joggers and a fitted white t shirt with an adidas track jacket on.

as we approached her house. people outside were drunk, cups in hand

the music got louder as we got closer. the door was closed but the windows were open just the slightest bit allowing the music wave to travel out freely.

lex and gray walked in front of me and ethan.

ethan reached down and squeezed my hand, i guess i looked nervous.

i squeezed back twice and smiled up at him. he looked amazing. his hair was perfectly laid with the blonde streak bleeding into this dark brown hair. the beanie keeping it tamed. god i could look at him forever

the music started to beat into my body as we walked into the house. people danced around us as we made our way through the room. ethan slipped this arm around my waist. pulling me close.

he made me feel so safe. the feelings were all coming back so quickly, hitting me like a train

lex split from gray and went to talk to a girl i didn't recognize, she was tall. long brown hair extended down her back. she was pretty but had a slight masculine look to her. gray went off with his buddies. dapping them all up, and then took a cup from one i recognized. i think it was henderson. he is really nice, he's in my communications class and with that it left me and ethan.

he pulled me into the sea of people dancing in the living room. he gripped my waist as he pulled me against him. i grinded back on him with the music.

after an hour of dancing lex and grayson came back.

lex came first.

she was higher than the moon. her eyes red and held spliff between her two fingers. she handed it to me and i gladly excepted. i haven't smoked in months and i miss it.

i put it between my lips and took a long deep drag. ethan eyed me the whole time. holding it between my fingers still, i wrapped my arm around his neck and put my mouth to his letting him inhale the smoke. i hadn't done that with anyone in forever, i usually would do it with girls.

he inhaled and slowly blew it out.

"that was hot was fuck." he whispered in my ear, sending shivers down my spine. i took another hit. keeping this one to myself.

gray made his way back over and stood next to lex. he had a cup in hand. topped with beer. smelled like coors.

gross.

his neck covered in hickies.

"having fun?" ethan shouted at grayson.

he winked and nodded towards lex.

i put my hand over my mouth and looked at lex. i wasn't that surprised really, she did that type of shit all the time. my reason for partying for the alcohol and vibe, she partied for the guys.

"what." she giggled and cocked her head

"oh nothing." i said as ethan rubbed the small of my back

"want a drink?" he said into my neck, i nodded handed the bud back to lex.

he poured juice in a cup and then added the liquor, he placed it in my hand and i put the cup to my lips. it smelled good and tasted even better. i smiled at him.
me and him finished four more in the next ten minutes. i was feeling myself now.