The Trouble Goddess

Friendship Over?

Chae Rim's POV

"M-Minseokie..."

"We were very worried about you. We thought you are sick. We thought you need space. That's why we never asked you."

I can feel the cracks in his voice. I never really have seen him with such expression before.

"Since when did you start lying, Rim?!?" He shouted and his tears were running down his face.

"I thought I am your most trusted friend! Eversince we were little!!!"

I could not hold it any longer... I am hurting because I hurt my best friend. Tears also started to fall down.

"I don't even know you anymore! You are not the Chae Rim I know!!!"

"You made me look like a fool!!!" He again yelled and then he cried.

"I always thought of you before I sleep. Overthinking if I have done wrong to you. And you are just working here without even telling us??!?"

"M-Mianhamnida...M-Minseokie...I-I didn't mean to..." I couldn't find the correct words to say. Tears have filled my cheeks.

To all the people who would get mad at me, Minseokie being mad at me, is my weakness.

Imagining my life without him by my side is so depressing.

He has been by my side eversince. Yet I did not bother to tell him. What kind of a friend I am?

He turned his back at me. His shoulders tell me that he is feeling very down.

"Minseokie!" I ran to him and backhugged him. I can feel the sadness he is in right now.

"Sorry, sorry, I'm deeply sorry. Please forgive me!!!" I said while crying.

He removed my arms around his waist. Then he turned to me and faced me. "I don't understand you. I can't understand you." He said while crying.

I covered my mouth to prevent myself from sobbing. It hurts more than a breakup.

"Am I not your best friend anymore?" He said while crying.

I immediately shook my head and hugged him. " You will always be the best friend I ever have. I'm sorry I was not able to tell you. I don't want you to get involved anymore."

"You have always been there for me whenever I needed you. I have been such a burden to you. Mianhe."

He again removed my hug and faced me.

"You're selfish. You only think of yourself."

Wae? Waeyo? Why do those words hurt so much? Why did I hurt him so much?

"Mianhe, mianhe". Are the only words I can say.

He was about to go when I pulled his arm.  "Please don't go, Minseokie. Please. Let's fix this. I don't want to lose my bestfriend." I said, almost sobbing.

He smiled. A sad smile. A very sad one.

"I don't want to, too."

"But did you really treat me as your best friend?"

It started to rain. And Minseok started to walk away too.

I was left there in the middle of the rain, crying my heart out.

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I didn't know how I was able to get home after that. All I knew was I went home drenched, exhausted and sobbing.

All my hyungs approached me with worried faces and asked me questions as they wrapped me in many towels. But all I did was cry.

They did all that they can to comfort me. But my heart was so broken.