passion and love - josh

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by rikeystars

by rikeystars

first kiss oooo

for @sosweetsojones

iT sTaRtEd OuT wItH a KiSs HoW dId iT eNd Up LiKe ThIs

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"Anything new?" I asked Josh, wondering if he had any new songs written.

"Um, yeah actually..." he answered, rummaging around in his nightstand as I sat on his bed, listening to a John Denver record softly playing in the background. He pulled out a notebook and flipped to a piece of paper with a song written on it. "I-it's still in the works so there's a lot that can still be changed," he nervously chuckled.

"Josh, it's fine, I'm not gonna judge. It's just me," I laughed back, reassuring him. He just smiled and looked down. I read over the song, and I started to feel an odd feeling in my stomach, kind of like when you get butterflies from being nervous but different... The song seemed to be about somebody, it was about wanting somebody you can't have. And I know Josh too well. He wouldn't have gotten as nervous as he did when I asked him about it. "Josh," I started, grabbing his attention. "Is this about someone?"

"No," he quickly answered, taking the notebook away from me. "It's just...um, something that popped into my head. Yanno, it was just a general idea," he laughed.

"Josh," i sternly said.

"What?" He laughed.

"I can tell by how you're acting that whatever or whoever you wrote that about is real to you," I quietly said to him. His eyes darted back to the floor as I scooted closer to him. "You can tell me, you know? You know that I know you, I won't criticize your writing. I'm not going to judge you at all—"

"It's you," he interrupted.

"What?"

"It's about you, y/n. Practically all my songs are about you," he said, remaining eye contact with the floor.

"W-what is that supposed to mean?" I nervously laughed.

"How did you not figure it out sooner? You're the One? That's about you. You're the one I want, y/n. You've been the one for a long time now. So I said it in song instead of saying it to you," he explained, getting softer and softer as he spoke.

"Josh," I breathed out again. "Do...do you love me?" I asked shakily. He sat a foot away from me on his bed, still staring at his feet, remaining silent. "Josh?" I repeated. He shrugged.

"Yeah," he finally answered. "I do."

My breath hitched, angry at myself for not realizing he felt this way for so long. Almost three years we've been closer than peas in a pod, and I never thought about him in that way. Until now. Now that I'm hearing him tell me all of this, I realize how amazing and wonderful he truly is. The tight hugs, the kisses on my cheeks and forehead, the way he smiled and blushed when I said certain things...

"To be honest," I started, making him close his eyes, "I never thought of you in that way. I never thought that those songs were about someone special, or I thought they were about someone in the other boys' life. But this song...I don't know it just..gave me this gut feeling it was about someone. And hearing you tell me all this makes me realize how amazing and perfect you are, and it makes me feel so special that you wrote those songs about me. I'm so dumb for not realizing that you felt that way, and I shouldn't have doubted my thoughts." He continued staring at the ground as I saw a tear drop from his face. "No, Josh, stop..." I whispered to him, lifting his head up to look at me.

I stared deep into his brown eyes, seeing a pool of love sitting in the center. His eyebrows twitched as I continued to stare, softly holding his cheeks, wiping away tears with my thumb. I pulled his face into mine, connecting my lips with his. As if it was a movie, I could feel fireworks going off from the sparks shooting from our lips. He kissed me with passion, and I kissed him with love.

"I love you too, Josh," I finally whispered, lightly pulling away.

"Really?" He lightly laughed, his lips still close enough to brush against mine. I nodded, as he barely even had to move to kiss me again. There was just a certain something about they way I felt in that moment. And I have a feeling that something that was always there.

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bruh i literally do not know how to write kiss scenes for the life of me please help

if anyone was wondering, I've been updating like 24/7 because I temporarily deleted social media so I've been on here more

also that isn't a real song or anything it was just something random lmao