𝓯𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻 𝓹𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻 🌸// GVF IMAGINES

i wanna be your girlfriend - jake

no. not girl in red. ezra furman.

listen to i wanna be your girlfriend by ezra furman right now it's such a cool song if you listen to the lyrics like go stream that shit immediately

I couldn't decide whether to do jake or josh for this one and even though i do jake so much im doing him again (lmfao i wish but you know what i mean)

this is prompted towards something really frustrating going on in my life and i feel like it works well with jake (its not anything bad, its just something i can never get off my mind and i almost bawled my eyes out today because of it...stupid fucking boy shit)

UNEDITED

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Everyday. Every single day he crossed my mind. In bed at night, when I wake up, during the day...he's all I think about. His sweet personality, his talent, his long brown hair, I love it all. Jake Kiszka has had my heart for over a year, and his twin, Josh, is the only person who knows. Oh, and so does Jake.

"Where's Sam and Jake?" I asked Josh as I sat on his couch, opening a bottle of beer.

"Uh, they haven't been home for a while. They'll probably come back soon." He told me, brushing it away. "So uh, how's things?"

"What do you mean by 'things'?" I chuckled.

"You know," he shrugged. "Jake?" He smirked. I looked down at my feet as he said his name.

I shrugged. "The same. Nothing new."

"Y/n, you need to tell him," he sternly told me. "You can't just keep daydreaming about it all the time, you've got to do something about it."

I kept staring at the floor, slightly nodding in agreement.

"Plus, it's not like he's got a girlfriend," Josh added. That was true. It's not like I'd be ruining something that's already there and making things worse for somebody else.

"Okay," I nodded, picking my head up. "When he gets home, I'll...I'll talk to him."

"There you go," Josh excitedly said, patting my back. I chuckled, hearing the front door open, signaling Jake and Sam we're back.

"Hey y/n!" Sam said, entering the living room.

"Hi Sammy," I smiled. "What's up?"

"Nothing much, how you doing?" He grinned, sitting down beside me. I nodded and told him I was good. I heard some commotion in the hall by the door. Was Jake talking to someone?

"Hey guys," he said, walking into the living room, a beautiful, skinny, brown-eyed, brunette girl walking in beside him. "This is Maddie."

Any smile or slight smirk I had immediately dropped. She snaked her hand around his waist and waved greeting us with a quiet, "Hi."

"I'm Josh," he greeted, also waving slightly. "This is y/n..."

"Hi Josh, hi y/n!" She nicely said. The water in my eyes came out without even a threat, so I jumped up and rat out of the room making a bee-line to Josh's bedroom. I slammed his door, jumped onto his bed, and sobbed into his pillow.

I had finally become so close to Jake, close enough to the point that today I was going to tell him how I really felt about him. And he comes home with a girl? The more I thought about it the more I sobbed. I cried and cried and cried until it was just silent tears running down my sticky face.

I heard feet shuffling in the hallway, coming to open the door.

"Josh, please just leave me alone..." I said, my words muffled in the pillow.

"What if I'm not Josh?"

I turned my head to see that it was Jake, as he closed the door behind him. "Hi," he whispered. I turned my head away from him. "Are you okay? Josh said I should go talk to you."

I stayed quiet.

"Y/n?" He softly said, putting his hand on my shoulder. I sat up only to shove my face into my hands to cry again.

"I just..." I began. "There's just so much I want to say to you but I don't know where to start."

"It's okay," he said, hand still on my shoulder. I put my hands down, looked straight ahead of me, took a deep breath and began.

"Do you know how long I've liked you? From the day I met you and on I've always had a huge crush on you. I still do. It never went away. You know that I like you, how could you not say anything at all? Not even a 'I just don't like you in that way' or 'let's just stay friends.' I'd rather be friend-zoned than you passing it by like it's nothing. You told Josh you knew that I liked you, but you couldn't even tell me? I think you're so cool, you're talented, you're handsome... I love everything about you so much. And then you came home with a girl and it fucking set me off Jake, I'm sorry."

I put my face back into my hands and sobbed again. "I'm sorry..." I repeated.

"I...I knew you liked me but I didn't know you liked me that much..." he shakily said.

"I was going to tell you this today anyway, but the fact that you now have a girl makes it ten times worse," I explained.

"I'm sorry y/n," he said, lightly rubbing my back. "But you're right, I should've said something..." I looked over at him, his eyes full of sympathy as they stared at my watery ones. "I just don't like you in that way."

The tears fell again as I looked away from him.

"I love you so much, you're so important to me, but just not in that way. And I really like Maddie, I think things will go well with her." He calmly explained. "I'm so sorry."

"It's okay," I whispered.

"I'll...I'll let you freshen up," he said, standing up to leave the room. He planted a kiss on my head and left, lightly closing the door behind him.

I kept crying over and over again. Why the fuck is life like this? Why do things always end up this way. I shoved my face back into the pillow and as loud as I could, I screamed, "FUCK."

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but fr whys life gotta be this way

but yeah ive got this dumb crush that ive had for a really long time now and hes got a girlfriend and i wanna tell him all this shit but i never will so here it is in the form of angsty fanfic