-Jisung's p.o.v-
The light between the blinds proves morning glory has arrived
"What nightmare do i have to face today?""
Ok rise and shine my idiots~" said by Chan.I quickly change into a black hoodie with jeans which i usually don't wear much until...now.I put my shoes on and rushed out the door."Grumpy morning?"said Chan i shook my head and forced a smile to appear with my "blanked" face."You going somewhere?"asked Changbin as he jumps on the couch."I am not sure yet"i said."Hyung what's for brekkie?"
Felix yelled in his room."Bacon with omelet"Chan yelled back as a response.
I went on my phone in Instagram. I started scrolling until i saw one of my posts which i always regretted to share online.I sighed which made Chan stare at me worried."Hey you okay there bud?"Chan muttered with concern."I am alright hyung don't worry"I said.Which still didin't convinced him to be okay with my response back.
Everyone got out of their rooms and gathered at the kitchen except me.Chan started to put plates on the table.I noticed him glaring at me worried i shrugged my shoulders at him smiling."C'mon Ji lets eat"said Chan."I am good hyung not really hungry"I said.Chan hyung came closer to me and sat beside me on the couch.
"What's the matter Ji?"he asked with sincere eyes."I am fine hyung" i started to say with an attitude."Woah don't give your attitude on me i am just trying to talk seriously"he stated.
I sighed annoyed "Ji i know there is something wrong what is it?"he said.
"I SAID IM FINE"I yelled angrily which made the members turn around watching the commotion happening with me.I rushed to my room and shut the door.
I started to feel tears falling down my cheeks."Why did i do that?"I asked myself with even more tears coming down."W-why did i create a scene?" I started hitting myself.I felt the walls coming closer waiting to crush me and voices started to whisper louder and louder.I heard knocking on my door i knew it was one of them trying to confront me when i made a scene.
"Hey Ji can i come in? Its me Felix"Felix said."No" i cleared my voice so it won't sound like I'm crying.
"Please?"He said willingly."Felix please leave me alone"i said annoyed.
"Ok then we just wanted to know if your fine and we left food in the fridge for you"He said."Ok thanks"i said but my voice started breaking so it really sounded like i was crying but good thing he didin't hear or notice it.
I finally thought of going out of my room.But there was just something stopping me,convincing me to not even touch the door knob.I just felt so much hatred on myself for creating commotion over a little thing that seemed like a big problem for me.
"Ji please come out of there its almost been two hours please your worrying us"Hyunjin said.I recognized by his voice.I didin't say anything back.
I heard nothing but silence.So i decided to come out of my room.But as every step i take closer to the door there is just something heavy making me stop and think first before i do such things.But i overcame it,i grabbed the door knob and twisted it open afraid opening my eyes.But what i only saw was my members napping on the couch piling on top of each other.I tip-toed to the front door to get some fresh air.I suddenly felt someone hugging my waist.It was Hyunjin.
Hyunjin was always by my side when i was sulky,mad and concerned.Anxiety went over me.I pushed him away shaking.Hyunjin was worried."Please get away from me i'm a freak"I started breaking down in to tears.Because of that the members woke up,rubbing their eyes to see clearer.When i saw them all waking up i felt the walls are a inch away from me.I kneeled down shaking covering my ears wishing i never went out of my room.
I suddenly woke up with members surrounding me with concerned faces.They all started cuddling me.I felt warm and comfy inside but still demons capturing my soul i was
still scared."We were worried for you" Chan said with shaking eyes on me.
I started crying because of the comfort given to me by my brothers who love me.
Ok that made me teary.As you know i made a new story don't worry there will be lots more of chapters to this.Hope you enjoyed♡♡♡~~~
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Фанфик{COMPLETE} a story featuring Han Jisung who has depression along with anxiety his members doesn't know until they get a little suspicious with his lyrics in the songs he secretly writes. PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP READING THIS! MY DIGNITY IS GONE...
