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a story featuring Han Jisung who has depression along with anxiety his members doesn't know until they get a little suspicious with his lyrics in the songs he secretly writes.
PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD STOP READING THIS! MY DIGNITY IS GONE...
Sometimes is better to forward than to reverse in time
-Jisung's pov- "Ok everyone rise and shine!" Chan yelled coming from the living room.
I was already awake an hour ago.While I was killing time earlier by reading fan letters,some had suicide threats that I should do,that's what they think which I clearly agree to.But for the first time I didin't cry.I was more of emotionless to those letters.I don't know if that's good or not but its harder to smile or laugh with real joy now than last time.How did I even change that fast?
"We don't have any schedules today so why don't we spend time together?" Chan excitedly said with a big smile."Yeah we deserve this right?" Seungmin asked."Of course we do." Minho dramatically said flicking his imaginary "hair"."Can we go to the arcade today hyung?" Hyunjin asked with puppy eyes."Sure!" Chan happily allowed."Hyungggg can we go nowwww?" Jeongin asked getting impatient."Hold on maknae we have to eat and get ready first." Chan told him.
"Ugh I was kinda happy yesterday but what happened now..." I whispered to myself."I guess I'll just have to act happy...again." I thought to myself.
I went in the bathroom and got ready.Everyone also got ready.
-10 minutes later- I finished everything I had to do and just waited for everyone to finish as well.While I was waiting I decided to scroll through Twitter.
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(Oh yeah just wanna mention that I'm so happy that Jisungie got the courage to participate in the new fansign (200111) I think he's getting a little better)
I sighed but felt nothing but numbness."I don't know what's happening with me.How am I becoming emotionless?" I asked to myself."Yah is everyone ready?" Chan hyung asked.They all responded while I just sighed and turned off my phone,heading to the kitchen."Ugh I am actually so sleepy." Hyunjin whined emphasizing it by making his words longer."Then don't come,I'm easy to talk to." Chan said with sass."You know what nevermind hyung I'm energetic and gay as I can be." Hyunjin scoffed.Chan just scrunched up his face with a weird expression."Okay whatever,So let's eat then hit the road." Chan said happily.
-10 minutes later- "Okay let's go!"Chan said putting on his shoes and opening the front door.We obviously went out first since he had a hard time putting on his shoes.I opened the door of the van and we all went in one-by-one.We just waited for Chan hyung to drive.Minutes later he started driving.It was so awkward since it was dead silent.Well it was until someone broke it."So uh why don't we all talk,cause we all know that this is awkward." Felix broke the awkward silence.We all laughed."Yes thank you Felix." Chan said in front."Uh anyone wanna do something while waiting to arrive?" Hyunjin asked."Ooh Ooh! Me!!!" Jeongin yelled excitedly."What is it maknae?" Hyunjin giggled.We all gathered our attention to the adorable maknae."I wanna play truth or dare!" Jeongin suggested while smiling like an angel but there's still evil in his eyes."Yeah sounds pretty good right gays?" Felix laughed."Fuck off Felix,AcTinG LikE He'S NoT gAy." Minho teased.Felix just laughed even harder.I sat there (barbeque sauce on my titties lol jk sorry) quietly."Hyungs~! Let's play now~~~" Jeongin pouted getting impatient."Alright Jeongin so who goes first?" Chan asked taking a glance at the back since it was traffic."YOU!" We all yelled at the same time,well at least them.Chan giggled seeing his dongsaengs happy and excited."Okay okay so ask me." Chan said smiling like an idiot."So hyung truth or dare?" Minho asked since he was sitting behind Chan."Truth" Chan said."What a chicken!" Seungmin yelled from the back."Whatever,so what Minho?" Chan rolled his eyes."Do you have a crush on any of us?" Minho asked,we all smirked.We could tell that Chan was as red as a tomato."He's blushing!" Hyunjin said chuckling."Y-yeah I do." Chan whispered but loud enough to hear."Ohohohoho wonder who that is wink wink." Felix smirked."Okay next!" Jeongin exclaimed."I'm next." Seungmin informed."Okay truth of dare?" Chan asked."Dare!" Seungmin challenged himself."I dare you to say mongg(forgot how to spell it hehe)when we see a dog." Chan dared with a smile."Alright." Seungmin smirked."Hm perfect timing look there's a dog!" Jeongin yelled.He hesitated but still did it."Uh mongg~" Seungmin did it cutely.Everyone cooed at the sight."Okay lets continue this game since...we are here!" Chan informed excitedly."Yay!" The youngest exclaimed."That's cute." Hyunjin pinched his cheeks as I thought they all looked cute and happy bickering each other."Ok we are now parked and settled now...LETS HAVE SOME FUN!" Chan announced.They all shouted with joy.It made me happy seeing them like this.We all exit the van and walked to the arcade place."Come on gays." Felix claimed.We just rolled our eyes and Felix just laughed."What can I say? I'm Lee Felix!" Felix exclaimed.He didin't notice we all left him to buy tokens.We chuckled when he pouted."Alright so we are only going to spend 1000 won so lets share okay?" Chan announced while looking at everyone to make sure we approve.We all nodded and Chan started giving us.
I,of course wasn't in the mood to do anything today.I just wanted peace and security.I feel like something bad will happen.All these atmospheres keeps changing and its making me uncomfortable to be around so many people and loud arcade music.
//They were all playing now except for Ji//
-20 mins later- "Okay is everyone's tokens finished?" Chan asked.They all nodded while I look at my pocket which had the tokens since I didin't play any games.I kept silent but followed."Alright lets pass by a restaurant near our van so we can eat."
It was already getting dark.We passed by an aesthetic cute little restaurant,just a few blocks away from the arcade place."Lets go here shall we?" Minho asked Chan.Chan just took glances at all of us if we approve just like last time.We all did.He nodded at Minho.
We got in and it was so cute.All my members were asking each other to take photos of themselves."Hey guys!, Hyung! Lets all take a picture together." Hyunjin suggested almost unable to tell Chan since he was about to order."Alright!" Chan said waddling his way together with us.I walked beside them slowly,feeling awkward as people stare at us.I always wonder why my members were okay with this when I don't."1,2,3!" Chan said."Stray kids!" We all shouted.I was disturbed by the stares but they didin't look like they mean anything right? Hopefully."Okay boys lets eat!" Changbin said excitedly finding a seat for eight people.As Chan started asking orders from us.(Typical waiter am I right? Jk)
My phone started buzzing but not a call just a text from someone....unknown??? I pressed the notification and began reading the texts.
"I-i......"
To be continued haha lol jk next chapter
Sorry for being inactive for half a month cuz you know I am lazy af But I'll try mah best to upload the new chap faster. Love ya fellow stays(baby girls)
