Secrets untold

Memories

Memories aren't meant to be forgotten but it also isn't meant to be remembered.

*Flashback*
(This was Jisung when he was 17)
"Hey Jisung want to join us at a pool party?" Felix asked the said boy."I-i can't sorry guys." Jisung answered sadly."Oh c'mon Jisung we haven't hanged out with you for so long we miss you.Your the mood maker!" Chan said."I know and i'm sorry I just don't have enough time to do these activities." Jisung replied back."All you do is study don't you think you deserve a break?" Hyunjin added.Everyone else started agreeing with his question.

"Jisung stop slacking! You have to study to get better with your low achievements! No son of mine will slack and do nothing but hangout with your stupid useless friends!"
Jisung's mom yelled angrily,slapping his son harshly."My friends are not useless nor stupid like you!" Jisung argued back. "You little brat! Can't you see that I am disciplining you to become a better person!? Well maybe you should've been better by now when you don't fucking talk back and always ask me for permission to invitations!" Jisung's mom fought back."I will always say no Jisung! Your not good enough for my satisfaction! And you will never be!" Jisung's mom yelled for the last time until storming into her room and shutting the door loudly.

*Jisung's pov* (Still a flashback)
"Jisung?"Hyunjin asked me and I snapped back in reality."Oh yeah I really can't i'm sorry." I ran home quickly.As soon as I opened the door there was already audible shouting."Jisung! You got home 20 minutes late!" My mom yelled."I know i'm sorry mom." I said looking down on the ground."What a disappointment!" My brother laughed.My mom started hitting me as my everyday routine.I tried stopping my tears and ran upstairs in my room.I went straight to the bathroom and started rolling up my sleeves and grabbed a razor blade."Should I do it.....again?" I whispered to myself."Of course you should Jisung!" The voices in my head answered.I obviously followed.I took the razor close to my skin and started cutting more than I would.I rolled down my sleeves and I broke down crying.I got up to see my scars and bruises on the mirror."Gosh look at you,your disgusting and worthless.How can I not be Han Jisung cause I don't want to anymore." I whispered."Jisung go fucking study!" I heard my mom yelled from downstairs.I opened the bathroom door and wiped my tears.I began studying for the nth time.

*End of flashback*
I woke up in a hospital looking room.Towels clean and white.I couldn't remember what happened to me I don't know how I got in this unfamiliar place.As thoughts gone through my mind I was startled when the door opened disarmingly."Oh Han Jisung your awake." A woman looking doctor came in."Who are you? Where am I?" I asked her.
"I'm doctor Lee Sue and your in a hospital,do you remember anything that happened to you?" The now doctor Lee Sue answered and asked."N-no." I admitted."That's fine don't worry,well you fainted that's why your in here." She said."Where are m-my friends?" I asked her."Oh their outside,they've always been waiting there for hours,worried for you." I felt warm inside that they do actually care but I'm not sure if I should believe."C-can you call them please?" I asked hopefully."Sure." She said.Then she went outside I guess to call them of course.

The door opened again.Boys coming in one by one.They were familiar cause they were my friends."Jisung! My twin!" Felix said in a raised voice and hugged me."We were so worried for you Ji-ji." Chan hyung said sitting down on my bed beside me."Are you okay? Are you hurt? Are you scared? Do you remember anything?Do you remember us?" Hyunjin started asking a bunch of questions which made my head hurt."Hyunjin i'm sure he's fine,calm down." Chan reassured Hyunjin.Really?! Phew." Hyunjin said back.I flash them a weak smile."Awwww I miss that smile!" Minho said."Can we take him home please?" Seungmin asked to Dr.Lee Sue."I guess so,you can take him home in two hours,I just have to make sure he's ok." Dr. Lee Sue allowed."Wait,can he attend school now?" Jeongin asked her."That's up to him but since you asked me of course he can." She said with a kind smile."Yay!" Jeongin exclaimed.I felt happy that I get to spend time with my members again without being sick.I didin't know if I should go to school.I hated that living hell of a place.