Skz×Jisung
A/N:Not a part of the story chapters.
(This is also involved in the hiatus letter I posted a few days ago,this was all planed and was in draft.)
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Hyunjin's pov
It was the day,the day our huge concert came.We haven't been active and haven't seen stays in a long period of time.It was because of our packed schedule and for the time we needed to practice for this huge event.We were getting ready to leave to an hour drive to the concert.We had to come early so we can rehearse.I was packing up for the trip in our shared rooms."Guys! Hurry up we have to hit the road in five more minutes!"Chan hyung yelled in the hallways.We all said yes and hurried packing.
5 minutes later......
"Ok lets go!"Chan hyung said excitedly.We all rushed to the vans until someone shouted."Guys! Wait for me mates!"Felix yelled running to us,panting."Slow poke."Minho hyung joked.We chuckled at his reaction.We were all in the van now.I noticed that Jisung was so oddly quiet.He would often joke a lot.But this time,it was different.Changbin is beside me so I signed him to look at Jisung to see if he notices something."That's weird."Changbin whispered.Jisung was sitting beside Felix.He looked nervous for some reason.It got me worried.Also did Changbin."Don't worry I know he'll be fine maybe he's just tired."Changbin whispered pecking my cheek."I hope so."I replied glaring at him.
Jisung's pov
It has been 55 minutes in our drive.Everyone is asleep excluding me.I was to anxious to go on stage after so long.I felt like I was hyperventilating.I was already so sweaty.My hands were shaking.My stomach was aching badly.I couldn't move a lot because Felix's head is on my shoulder sleeping cutely.I tried calming myself down.It kinda worked for a while.
We were here.I was at the backseat so I was the last one to get out of the van.Hyunjin approached me with worried eyes."You okay baby?"Hyunjin asked concerned."Y-yeah."I replied with a reassuring smile."Are you nervous?"Hyunjin suddenly asked while we were heading in the concert area."Kinda."I said trying to be a little honest."It'll be fine baby."He reassured me and pecked my forehead.
We were going up on the stage after setting our things down.I was trembling,imagining this concert filled with thousands of people staring at me with huge cameras.I wasn't ready."Ji baby?"Chan hyung asked me."Y-yes?"I said."Feeling nervous?"He asked me dragging me in the corner."Y-yeah hyung."I admitted anxiously."It will be okay just stay calm."Chan said motivational.Chan hyung kissed my lips passionately."I love you."Chan said backing away into his position.I felt better but still nervous.
After rehearsal.................
We had to get ready now.Our clothes and makeup should be done in 20 minutes.My anxiety even got worse.I was already done with every necessity I need.I felt so deep in thought.My breathing was getting heavier."I can't do this"keeps repeating in my head.But I know I can't let my members down.
20 minutes later....................
The concert was about to start,I was a nervous wreck.I couldn't think properly.People were starting to fill up the stadium.The more people add up,the more I become anxious.I felt nauseous.I was literally having a panic attack.The voices in my head keeps telling me I'm not good enough,people are disgusted when they see you,your boyfriends actually hate you they don't pity you.
"Ok everyone the show is about to start!" The staff said.Well there is nothing I can do about it.The show must go on."Is everyone set?" Chan hyung asked.They all nodded while I didin't answer.I gained no confidence in me whatsoever.What the fuck do i do? That question keeps repeating in my head."Please Lord please."I whispered.Everything was happening way to fast.We were signaled to enter the stage.I went behind because I can't focus whenever fans yell when we enter.We were all there now.We had to do our greetings first before we start dancing."Step out! Hello we are Stray Kids!"They yelled while I just did the sign.
The song started and of course we also began dancing.
The dance went fine until I was unfocused when a fan suddenly threw something on stage.It almost hit me and that got my attention.For some reason that made me anxious."Damn it,I was calm for a second." Went through my head."HYUNJIN-AH SARANGHEYO!" A fan yelled so loud."STRAY KIDS WOOO!" Another group of fans yelled when the song ended.All the yelling disrupt me.
An hour later.The concert has ended at last.I sighed in relief when were getting off the stage."Thank God."I sighed to myself."You okay Ji baby?"Chan hyung asked.I nodded as he pats my head and pecks me on my cheek."See its not so bad."Felix told me while passing by.But me being relieved wasn't going to last long.I just remembered we had a fan meeting.Which involves me getting to close to fans.I can get to uncomfortable,and when I do get uncomfortable I start panicking and start breaking down into tears.That will only happen if I don't calm myself down until my anxiety takes the best of me."Fuck I can't do this bullshit anymore."I whispered.
My boyfriends noticed and started making moves.I saw Chan hyung talking to the staff.The members were also listening.So I thought maybe going there and see what was going on.But I was to late,the 'discussion' ended as soon as I got closer.The staff signed me to follow them,leaving the members with soft smiles on their faces.I was confused."Okay,so you won't be attending the fan meeting but you will appear when you get encouraged to go on stage,but don't worry we won't force you to if you don't want to.And you will go back stage again when they start singing so got that?"The staff assured me."Yeah"I answered."You can go back now to your members.I just nodded and went back to the members.So I guess that's what they were talking about,about me not attending the fan meeting well kinda not.
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Iiiiiiiii am to lazy to continue dis so imma continue tomorrow so yaaaa thx for the 800+ views i really appreciate these simple thing that happen to me so thanks again.
Sorry for being a lazy b*tch (Sorry also for having no energy I feel sick but i will try to update as soon as I can.)Thx for understanding
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