Love O2O (Onscreen 2 Offscreen)

Chapter 22

Rollercoaster.

The feeling of reaching the top after a long, grueling climb then plummeting within seconds.

Rollercoaster.

Exactly what I'm feeling.

"What are you saying?"

I struggle to make sense of this all.

"I can't do this anymore, Yang."

You can't do this anymore?

"Did I do something wrong, Shuang?"

I must have done something to piss her off.

"Mei you."

"You don't love me anymore?"

"Mei you!"

"Then what?! Help me out here coz I can't make sense of any of this at all!"

I almost want to take back what I said seeing her trembling.

"Dui bu qi."

So, that it? "Sorry? That's all you can say?"

"What do you want me to say?"

"The truth! Tell me why just a week ago, you gave me the happiest day of my life and now, you're leaving me just like this?!"

She won't even look at me.

"Yang, I... "

"You told me you'll do anything for me... was that all a lie, Shuang?"

"Mei you! I'd do anything if it's for your sake... "

"So breaking up with me is for my sake? Ripping my heart out when I'm at my happiest... is this a cruel joke to you?"

"Yang, that's not it. I- "

"THEN WHAT IS?!"

"I'M SO FUCKING TIRED!"

Wow.

"Hao de. After Martial Universe, let's announce our relationship."

"Then what? Your fans will bash me. My fans will hate you. It's just a cycle."

"I know it's hard for you, Shuang. I know how you suffered just to be with me. All that I'm asking is a bit of time. We'll overcome this."

"You don't get it, do you? I'm so tired, Yang. I'm tired of hiding, tired of always looking behind my shoulders in fear of someone catching us. I want to have a normal relationship. I want to date freely. Hold hands in the mall. Eat without putting on a mask."

I can't believe I'm hearing this from her.

"What do you want me to do, Shuang? I'll do anything. Just don't break up with me."

She looks at me for a long time, her expression unreadable.

"Quit being an actor and live a normal life with me. Can you do that?"

What? If I quit now, I-

"See? I knew you can't give it up. That's why I'm doing us a favor."

How can she be this cold?

"Don't you love me anymore, Shuang?"

She looks at me again, this time I see the sadness in her eyes.

"If I told you I don't, will you let me go?"

Her words crushes my heart.

"Is this what you really want, Shuang?"