Love O2O (Onscreen 2 Offscreen)

Chapter 34

It was a beautiful dream.

Waking up beside his quiet sleeping face was a dream I never thought I could have again.

But it's just that, a dream.

Now, I must wake up to reality.

I pick up each article of clothing with care, mindful not to make even the tiniest noise. He's a light sleeper after all.

As I exit the place that gave us solace even just for a night, I feel a tear escape.

Spending the night with him reminded me of one painful thing.

I can never be happy again.

Not like when I'm with him.

So I take my steps away from him before I lose control and run back to his arms.

"Why are you running again?"

I gasp as I feel a familiar warmth. I turn around to face him.

"Yang, I... "

"Stay with me."

His arms wrap securely around mine, holding me tighter than before.

"You always run away from me, Shuang."

He burries his face on my nape, places soft kisses on it.

"And I always chase after you."

His hands intertwine with mine.

"Shuang, last night... "

"Last night was a mistake."

I push his hands away.

"Last night wasn't supposed to happen."

"But it did! You can't just pretend it didn't!"

"I have to! We both have to!"

"Can you really pretend that you didn't fall asleep in my arms? That you didn't call out my name instead of his?"

"Can you really pretend that last night wasn't real?"

He cups my chin and level his gaze with mine.

"Because Shuang, everything felt real to me."

And it was to me too. I had never felt so free and full of life like the way I felt with him last night.

"But you know I can't. I can't be with you."

"Why? We both feel the same. Why can't you be with me?"

"I can't- "

"Because you have a boyfriend? A boyfriend who can't even make time for your birthday! A boyfriend who lets you drink by yourself on your own special day!"

"We'll just hurt each other if we stay together."

"Haven't you hurt me enough, Shuang?"

I know. Dui bu qi.

"That's why. I don't want to hurt you even more."

"Walking away from me will hurt me even more."

It's better for you to hurt now than suffer the consequences of my selfish love.