Lone Wolf

When I see you again...

My heart stopped and I no longer could breath as his green eyes locked with mine. He took a step forward and his forehead creased as I took a step back.
I closed my eyes as I shook my head, telling myself that I made a promise. When I looked back up Jace's face was screaming hurt.

The look on face made me want to run up to him and kiss him. I stare at him. Memorize every singe detail about his face, the way his jaw clenches and his eye brows knit together when he's confused, and the way his eyes light up when I look at him. I watch his adams apple bob as he swallows nervously and takes another step forward, and this time I stand still. I will not go to him, but I wont back away from him, I made a promise and I intend to keep it as much as it breaks my heart.
Six feet. Five feet. Four feet. Three feet. He stops. I'm not breathing.

"Alexia."

I let out a breath and a tear slides down my cheek as I stare at him wide eyed. I open my mouth to speak but it comes out as a strangled sob. Fuck it.
I take a step forward, and then I launch myself around his torso as I sob uncontrollably.

"Jace I am so sorry. I will never reject you, don't even think it for a second because it will never happen. Its killing me that I cant be with you right now. You have no idea how much it hurts."
He hugs me closer and I breath in his scent, never wanting to let go.
"Shhh, its ok. Its ok Lex. I've got you, and I will never let you go unless you want me to. I am yours."

My heart breaks as his words sink in deeper.

I am yours.

I look up at him and his finger brushes back a strand of my hair. I sigh as I close my eyes and put my forehead to his chest.

"You know I need to do certain things before we can truly be together. It's my decision as much as I hate it. I can't bear the thought of you getting involved and being hurt."

I feel him stiffen underneath me and I look up to his jaw clenched and his eyes closed. I reach up and brush my fingers through his hair. His eyes snap open and I smile slightly. He stares down at my lips and his grip around my waist tightens, closing any space between us.

My heart skips a beat as he leans forward, our noses touching. My skin is on fire, and lust fills my entire body. I close my eyes and sigh as he whispers one word.

"Okay."

I smile but it soon turns to a frown as I remember the one person who meant the most to me.
Jace puts a finger on my chin lifting it closer to his, "Hey, whats wrong? You have this thing on your face that looks a little unpleasant... I think it's a frown."

I chuckle a little and look up at him with a sad smile, "My dad used to always say okay, it was his go to word. Whenever we texted or if I told him I was going somewhere, he would always just say okay. I would tease him and give him so much shit for it, but now, I would do anything just to hear only that one word come from his mouth."

"Lexi I'm so sorry, I wish I was there sooner, I wish I could have been there for you-"

I cut him off, "Jace, no. You couldn't have been there for me, how could you? I pushed you away. Hell I fucking ran. This was not your fault, don't you dare blame yourself!"

He curled his arms around me tighter, engulfing me so that my sobs were muffled by his t-shirt. He put his chin on top of my head as he held me,

"I will always blame myself when your in pain, because I can fix you, because I can love you and make it all go away."

I felt my wolf stir in my mind, uneasy about something. I felt my phone go off in my pocket as I felt the now rude appearance of my wolf in my head.

I don't want to do this Alexia, it hurts me just as much, but you need to check your phone.

I pulled back from Jace and reached into my back pocket to pull out my phone. I only had to see the first three words on the screen to jolt be out of my trans.

I looked up at Jace and frowned,
"Jace I'm so sorry, I-i have to go... I'm sorry. I love you."

I turned and jogged to my car, jumping over the door and across the seats.

"Alexia!"

I looked back up and saw his confused and broken face. I smiled and hollered back to him,

"When I see you again, I will kiss you with all my heart so that you will never forget how much you really mean to me!"

He smiled and I turned the car on, looking down at my phone I growled as I read the last message again.

Carter: I found them.

Me: On my way, picking you up. We have people to kill.

***********

Hey guys! I'm sooooo sorry, this chapter was supposed to be published a month ago, but it never fully published and for that I am sooo sorry. Next chapter will be up over the weekend.
Thank you for those who are putting up with my crazy schedule and are still reading,
~ B