In the prison of LOVE (loving beyond)

Chapter 1

Ryouta's

 
"Ryouta? Ryouta! Come here.. Such a beautiful child.. You look more and more like mom.." A beautiful woman said as she gestured for me.

"Unforgivable!! This is all your fault! If only you didn't do that.. Your dad should have been still mine!! Give him back! Give him back! GIVE HIM BACK TO ME RYOUTA!!" she shouted, her beautiful looks became a mess, her make up is a mess, her hair is a mess.. Her whole life became a mess.. The moment she blamed me, she took the largest vase beside her and raised it as she throw it to me..

"I will never let you feel happiness!! I will curse you to death and will never let you have peace!! I will make sure you remember this your whole life!! Remember this day, where you ruined this whole family, Ryouta You Brat!" She shouted..

"You will be left behind too, no one will ever love you, no one will stay with you, no one will make you feel love.. You see? We look so much a like.. You have my beautiful features.. But you have my ugliness as well.. Because you are my son"

The place changed.. And I found myself standing in front of the largest tree at the backyard of the elementary school in that town.
I looked around and got confused why there are so many people. Everyone are so shocked, some are overreacting, some are covering the eyes of their children..
And as I look up.. I started to walk slowly backwards..
I walked one step at a time.. As the police officers pulled the lifeless person hanging from the tree.. I wasn't feeling sadness nor loneliness.. I wanted to cry from fear.. From anger.. From resentment.. As the people looked at me with a considerable pity on their eyes.. But I wasn't able to speak.. My eyes are glued to that person lying on the ground now.. My eyes got stuck at her lifeless pupils staring back at me.. As her last cursing words echoed in my head... I found my self running away from there.. Away from my lifeless mother..
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Napabalikwas ako ng bangon.. Pinagpapawisan ako at hinihingal..
Bigla namang may pumasok sa kwarto ko.
"Ryou.. Okay ka lang ba? Binangungut ka nanaman ba?" Sabi ni kuya at lumapit sabay abot ng isang basong tubig.

Kinuha ko iyon at ininom..
Napangisi ako at nilamukos ang mukha ko, "putik lang.. They're so persistent even after death" pabulong kong sagot..

Hinaplos lang ni kuya ang likod ko.
Pagkatapos niya akong aluin ay nagpaalam na siya at may pasok pa siya sa trabaho.
Isang veterinarian ang kuya ko, may malaki siyang clinic sa gitna ng siyudad, doon din siya kumuha ng pangtustos sa pag aaral ko ng photography.
Tumayo narin ako at pumasok sa banyo.
Binuksan ko ang shower at hinayaang magbabad ang katawan ko sa mainit na tubig na lumalabas dito.

Napatingin ako sa salamin, pinunasan ko ang salamin para makita ko ang reflection ko rito.
Natahimik ako at napatitig sa mukha ko.
Medyo mahaba ang blond na buhok ko na pwede nang iipit sa likod ng tenga ko ang bangs ko.
Natatakpan narin ang batok ko sa likod, natural na curly.
Light na golden ang mata ko, makapal at mahahabang pilik mata, manipis at sharp edged eyebrows, matangos  na ilong, manipis na heart shape na labi, payat na V shape na mukha.. At oo, mukha akong babae. Mukhang babaeng babae, buti nalang matangkad ako, may shape ang katawan ko pero may maipagmamalaki naman akong abs at matigas na dibdib.. May muscles ang mga braso ko kahit mukha lang mahaba na payat..

Maraming mga babae na ka batch ko ang naiingit sa feminine features ko.. Pero kung ako ang tatanungin.. Sana kahit ang pangit pangit ko nalang, kahit yung tatakbuhan ako palayo sa sobrang kapangitan.. Basta huwag lang sana ang mukhang to.. Huwag lang ang mukha ng babaeng kinamumuhian ko.
Kung titignan mo ako ngayon at ang litrato ng mama ko, pwede na kaming tawaging kambal.. Dahil kopyang kopya ko ang pagmumukha niya.. Na ni katiting ay hindi ko ikinatutuwa..
Malakas kong itinampal ang kamay ko sa salamin na nasa harap ko bago ako pumikit.