The Dawn Of Us (Bangchan ff)

Chapter 1

I flinched at a cold breeze shivering thru my clothes as I stepped outside my house. It's 6am and I'm going to catch my bus to go to school. My school is about 30 minute drive from my small town and I have to be in school by 7am so I catch my 6:15 bus.
I sigh as I take my earphones and play music while walking to the bus stop.
As I came I saw a familiar figure standing not far away from me. I quickly realised who it was and I tilted my head down causing my hair to cover my face. Luckily a bus came right at the time so I quickly jumped on and sat by the window far at the back. I was still listening to music and looking out the window. I saw my reflection on the cold glass and I noticed my dark circles round my eyes, my chapped lips and red eyes. I sigh and return to my daydreaming session hoping today will go well. In the middle of the thought I slowly drifted to sleep.

I woke up to a bus stopping on my final destination. I jumped out the bus and turned to where my school is. I arrived to my class and sat at the back as usual. Even tho I sit in the back and even tho I'm a quite student I have the bes- i used to have the best grades in my class.

As I sat down I saw a bunch of girls also called kailey and the rest going towards me. I stood up intending to walk out the class.

Thought
It will all be over soon. Endure it just a little longer.

Kailey chased after me and pulled me by my hair slamming me to the wall. I fell on the floor. I slowly stood up and sat back on my seat not saying a word.

"why so tough bitch?"

Kailey just couldn't stop.

"not brave enough to talk huh. I knew it. You're messed up just like your family. Your dad still an alcoholic? I thought so. And your mom is still jobless. You don't have anyone! You should just die!"

I wasn't surprised to hear that everyday and honestly I'm used to it.

The truth about me is that I don't show up to school often lately.
The reason is simple it's just that I cut myslef. A lot. Nearly everyday. I have all night crying sessions and I don't get any sleep.
My life went down the hill with my parents divorce. It's all piling up and with my brother moving away due to his studies I'm the only one feeling all the pressure from my parents side. That's why I assured myself I'll end everything soon if this so called life doesn't end quickly.
Teacher told me to go to the therapist but I'm scared so I'll go to my schools social worker today since she's demanding me to talk to a professional.

"thank you for letting me know how you feel about me. Honestly I feel the sa-"
"Kailey that's enough! Leave her alone for once!"

I looked up seeing Naya. My best and only friend. I smiled slightly. Kailey rolled her eyes walking to her seat as I hugged Naya tightly.

"thank you"
"no no don't thank me. She's a bitch, don't mind her."

The teacher walked in so we went to our seats.
The class started.

~time skip~

It's lunch time and I'm not hungry. I decided to go to social worker right now.

I knocked on the door lightly hearing soft 'come in' from the other side. I walked in and sat down.
We started talking. I told her about everything including my self harm problem and family problems. I told her about my teachers assumptions and she was listening very well. Before I knew it was sobbing and crying my eyes out. She calmed me down and sent me to an actual expert to run some tests saying she's very worried about my condition.
I left the office.

I felt tears build up in my eyes once again as I stumbled to the girls bathroom. I ran to one of the empty stalls and started crying.
"w-why am I-I crying rn?"
I was crying like that for like ten minutes. Until I pulled myself together and walked out covering my dull eyes with my hair.

~time skip~

The day is finally over and I can go home. I threw myself on the bed holding a paper social worker gave me.

Thought
I really wanna go but how. I don't want my mom to go. She's finally happy with her new man and I don't want her to be worried.
Bu then again she never notices my problems so she wouldn't notice anything strange ether right?
I also can't tell my dad. He also has his new girlfriend and he's too busy drinking than thinking about his only daughter. Plus he would try to convince me to move in with him again...
I know what I'll do
End of thought

I picked up my phone and dialed a number.

On the phone:
(H=him; J=Jiwoo)

H: "hello?"
J: "oppa I need help."
H: "what is it Jiwoo?"
J: "I went to a social worker today and she sent me to a therapist."
H: "why is that? Are you okay?"
J: "honestly I don't know oppa. I feel like I'm depressed but I don't want to tell this to mom and dad."
H: "yes I understand. So why do you need me?"
J: "it says here that a grown person has to accompany me. Can you go please?"
H: "of course. I'll be right there."
J: "thank you oppa"

I put on a black hoodie and ripped jeans. I was so anxious and I felt like throwing up. I heard a car park infront of the house. I ran downstairs looking for my mom. She's nowhere to be seen so I just shook it off running to the door and entering my brother's car.

J: "hello oppa."
H: "hey. How're you hanging?"
J: "I don't know. I haven't been feeling well lately."
He just nodded and drove off.

I carefully lifted my sleeves to see about 7 nearly fresh cutting scars on my wrist.
I felt tears build up again.

What's happening to me?

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Hellloo!!
Author here. This is my first ever fanfiction. I hope you liked it. I'm sorry if this is cringe I'm trying lol. I'll continue working on it if you like it!!!

BTW this is jiwoo's brother hyunwoo.

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Disclaimer: I'm so sad for what happened with woojin 😔. Let's support him and his new dreams till the end ❤️.

Thank you woojin❤️🙏