The Dawn Of Us (Bangchan ff)

Chapter 21

Playlist:
~Breathe - ailee
~I need somebody - day6 
~She's in the rain - the rose 

Just hold on a little longer...

Jiwoos pov

I looked up. It looked as though the bus has stopped. I stood up and slowly moved to the door. I was hesitent but I still stepped down. The lady and a couple all went their own ways while I just stayed there not knowing what to do with myself.

I looked on my right seeing a beautiful sea which reflected the beautiful moon's white glow perfectly. I smiled a little. So peaceful. I walked down the road which led to the beach. It was at night and there weren't many people here. I stood on the beach just observing the magestic waves hit the coast.

I looked up at the moon and thought of my mom. Tears dwelled up in my eyes and a light sob was heard from my mouth.

"mom.. I miss you. Can you please.. Explain.. I - oppa is not well and.. I want.. I mean I don't want him to-.. You know..
I miss you so much. Why can't you hold me anymore, why can't you smile and laugh with me?
Why can't you kiss my cheek and tell me everything will be okay?
Why can't you hold my hand and say you love me!? "

I shouted the last sentence far down the sea. I wanted to reach her. I wanted my words to hit her heart like her acts hurt mine. I fell on my knees sobbing hard.

" why couldn't you love me?!"

I picked up a rock and threw it in water aggressively.

" Why did you choose to hate me?!"

I was crying harder.

" Why did you leave?!"

I grabbed onto my shirt.

"... ANSWER ME!!!"

I stood up and ran towards the ocean.

There's no other way for me to live. I'm sorry.. Oppa... Appa... Chan...

I must leave this horrendous world... There's no help for my lost soul here any longer...

Chans pov

The bus stopped. Finally. I ran out not wasting any time. 

Shit where is she? Please where are you? I don't have time!

I was looking around not knowing where to look. The world was spinning. I felt so weak. I felt like I lost.

"... ANSWER ME!!!"

my eyes widened and I felt a tear slip down my cheek.

I looked over my shoulder seeing a path to the coast. I ran as fast as I could not caring about anything else. It must be her. Please... Stay safe don't hurt me.

I ran as I could while my tears were streaming down my cheeks. I stopped dead on the spot.

No..... NO!!!

I quickened my pace.

"stop! STOP PLEASE!"

The girl was waking towards the ocean. She looked so lost. So hurt. So broken. What happened? I suddenly wanted to know everything about her. I suddenly wanted to help her.

She was half way in the water already. Shit this is not happening. She can't ...

No one's pov

Jiwoo didn't realise she has someone who cares for her. So she didn't stop. She decided. Her knees were under water already. She was calm and was smiling. Only happy tears were streaming down her soft pale skin. And her small silhouette was slowly disappearing in cold moonlight.

Chan was shaking from all the worry.
He couldn't believe his eyes. Is that the same girl that was so happy to talk about her new coworker? The same girl that saved jongin? The same girl that brightened up his day with only a smile? He couldn't believe it.

He finally reached her body when she was already shoulder high in the brutally cold water.

He finally pulled her towards his body. She froze in spot. He sobbed into her soft hair.

"why?" he softly asked not expecting an answer from the broken soul in his embrace. He picked her up bridal style and headed towards the beach. She was shaking from the cold. Her lips were blue and her skin grey.

Chan put her down on the beach and kneeled in front of her. He gave her his hoodie leaving him only in a t-shirt. He gave it to her without a word.
As she put it on he pulled her in a hug. He wanted to warm her with his heart. She must feel loved. She must feel important.
Jiwoo showed no expression only a single tear that slipped onto chans exposed arm.

He picked her up bridal style. She was shaking from the cold. Her skin was pale, almost grey and her lips were blue.

"C-chan... "

"shh.. Don't talk"

"I'm... T-tired.."

Her eyes were closing as she said that. Chan started panicking and started running with her in his arms.

"n-no don't sleep! help! Anybody help!"

No answer. He couldn't find a single soul. Her eyes were closed and her breathing was slow and heavy.

"I need to get you somewhere warm. Now!"

Chan ran across beach to a town nearby. Everything seemed closed. He finally noticed a convenience store across the street. He carried the girl to arrive infront of a lit up store. They entered and he placed her on one of the seats. She woke up shivering from the cold. He left her and went to find some warm clothes and food. He paid to the cashier and returned to the shivering girl.
He opened a cup of ramen noodles and spilt hot water over it. He finished preparing the noodles and he offered them to the girl.
She gladly accepted it. He gave her fresh clothes and she put it on.

Jiwoo finished her food and nodded to chan. They got out of they seats and left the store thanking cashier in the process. So they were out. Alone.

Chan took out his phone and checked the time. 12.56am.

"we can't catch a bus at this hour. We'll have to spend the night"

Jiwoo nodded. Chan led the way through the town looking for a hotel or something. While they were walking jiwoo stopped.

"is something wrong?"
"how did you find me?"

Chan was taken by surprise.

"can.. Can I ask you something first?"
"what?"
"why?"