I'm so tired
So tired of fighting
Fighting the constant thoughts in my head
I've been trying too hard to be okay
To see that I am beautiful
That the extra skin on my body doesn't make me ugly
The constant echoing of thoughts telling me not to eat
To cut down on my food because I've gained too much weight
That no one could ever love somebody like me
I'm too broken and abused because of my own thoughts
No one wants a girl who can't love herself
Who needs constant validation
Whose anxiety causes her to cling so hard to people and be distant at the same time
I fake a smile in hopes that maybe one day it will be real
I feel myself slipping more and more every day from my happiness
The only time I feel the slightest bit happy is when I'm with my friends
Sometimes even then it's not enough.
Maybe I'm just meant to be alone
Because who would love a girl who can't even love herself
-Ali❦
