I wonder if you know how much it tears me apart inside when I crave your touch and you're not here to give it. You push and push me away whenever you feel pain but how am I supposed to deal with the pain you're bringing me. How am I supposed to stand tall and be supportive when all my anxieties point to run away. The thing I wonder the most is how is it possible for one person to bring you so much happiness and safety but they also bring you pain and worry. How can I be happy talking to you when you barely talk to me. I'm so sorry because I don't know what to do when half of me is fighting for me to stay while the other half is telling me to run away.
-Ali❦
