Miss Jackson 3: The Urie Family

Chapter Forty-Three

When Brendon and I go to our bedroom I decide to let him know that I didn't like the way he talked to Violet.

"Brendon, I didn't like that you treated Violet like she was wrong for being upset." I admit as I begin getting myself ready for bed.

"Well I've taught her not to speak ill of her elders." He shrugs. I almost laugh at that because he spent almost 7 years hating on own mom and step dad all because of a fight that didn't even have to do with him. He catches my snort and asks what I'm laughing about. "Brendon, I recall you saying that you literally hated your own mother for 7 years." I tell him. His eyes tell me what he's feeling, anger and I don't care.

"That's different, I'm an adult." He spits.

"Oh, so only adults are allowed to get upset? That's actually terrible that you would even say that."

"No! I meant, get upset by adults." That makes it even worse.

"Are you serious Brendon? Violet is allowed to get upset by things that adults do. Adults do fucked up shit all the time. Any kid has every right to be mad."

"Yeah but she doesn't have a right to be upset with your mom about something that happened over a decade ago!" He stomps at me and I roll my eyes.

"Why does it even matter to you if she's upset about it? You barely even like my mom? You broke your dad and my mom over the same thing." I tell him and his face falls. Exactly, he knows I'm right.

"You're-you're right." He sighs, his voice getting lower and the tension in the room has left. "I have no right to tell Violet she can't be upset by this because I-I fucked up a whole relationship over it. I should probably apologize-" he attempts to leave but I pull back by the end of his shirt.

"No, it's too late now. She needs to be over the whole situation, going in there now will only make it worse."
I sigh.

"You're right again?" He groans and I laugh.

"Aren't I always?" I say and he just nods and presses a kiss to my lips.

The next day, I invite my mom over, as much as I hate bringing this up again, we need to get this all out in the open.

"Violet, what I did to your mom was awful and there's no amount of apologies I could possibly give in my life time to all of you. Just know that I love you and your brothers and your parents more than anything in this world. But I can understand why you're so upset. And I'm so sorry for the way you found out. You don't have to forgive me just know I'll be sorry until the day I die." My mom explains after we lay everything out.

"I just wanna know why you did it." She admits and we all pause and look at each other but I give my mom a nod to go ahead and tell her.

"I was dumb. I thought I was in love with your grand-" she pauses and she shakes her head. "I'm sorry, I don't think he should even be classified as that. I was in love-or thought that's what I was...with Christopher. Your moms dad. But I wasn't aware I was just being manipulated by him. I hurt your mom because of it and I should have never done that. I got sent to prison for a while and I missed so much of your moms life. It really showed me how much I had messed up. And I'm still paying for it to this day, you're upset with me-other people have been too. But I'm so sorry for all of it. You have to know that, if you can't forgive me I understand but I need you to know that I am forever sorry." She finishes her explanation.

"I guess it's just weird to me, that it all happened. Something so dark, happened and I didn't even know about it." She shrugs.

"And we planned on telling all of you, when you were old enough to understand a little better. But it's clear to us that you do understand." I tell her. She pauses and looks at her fingers for a minute. I really hope she can understand all of this and hopefully decide to forgive my mom but it's her decision.

"Grandma...I love you. You're one of my favorite people but I'm sad because I didn't think you were capable of doing such terrible things." She sighs. I look to my mom and I can see the tears form in her eyes. I almost say something for my mom but Brendon has speaks up before I can.

"And people make mistakes Vi, you'll see it your whole life but people need to be forgiven because making mistakes is just apart of being human." He places a hand on her knee, to reassure her that everything we're saying is to inform her not to force her to forgive my mom.

"So I need to forgive her?" Violet asks.

"No...absolutely not." I tell her. "If you don't feel like that's the right thing to do then don't."

She looks from me to my mom and I can see it in her eyes that she has forgiven her. I'm proven right when she lunges into my moms arms and hugs her really tight. Relief washes over me and I smile to myself.

"It's okay Grandma. You made a mistake and people do that." She says and my mom nods and sniffles a little.

"I love you girly." She sniffs once more before giving her a kiss on the cheek. I pat Brendon's hand as a way to say "we did that" and make my way to the kitchen to get us some tea.