Deadlock

I

“Roses are red, violets are blue, my day is complete because I saw you.” I muttered under my breath as I saw Jake stride along the bridge that was on our secret little paradise inside the school premises. It was a blue sky-ed day and everything seemed to be going exactly how it should be. Our little paradise was in a garden full of different kinds of flowers that light my mood every single time that I was in there. And I shared the knowledge of its existence only with my best friends, Nikki Simms and Jake Martin.

Jake Martin had deep dark eyes and messy brown hair. He had lean and tall muscular frame. I had known him since I was eight. I had liked him since then. He just didn’t know it though. Not even after almost ten years.

Thump… thump… thump… I’d been running from my room looking for my mother. I was going to show her the beautiful blue butterfly that was in my room. I had to hurry because it might fly away. As I turned to my left in the hallway, I bumped hard to a boy who was about my age. He had brown hair and really angry eyes.

“I’m s-s-sorry.” I stammered. The boy got up hastily and I stood up to apologize again.

“What have you done brat?” was all he managed to say. I had never been with any boys my age. I was scared he might actually hit me. I backed away from him but as he glared at me for another long moment, I couldn’t help but cry.

I couldn’t remember when people started to gather around us but I just suddenly heared my mother asked in her ever soothing voice. “What has happened Emily?”

I couldn’t exactly talk. I wanted to tell my mother what really happened. But my hiccupping was too much I couldn’t let out words. So I looked out for him, the boy who I bumped into. I saw him talking with a woman and a man and I could see his face getting all heated up. But at some point he looked beaten and he walked towards me and bowed as he said, “Sorry.”

I was too shocked to say anything. It was my fault that I wasn’t looking at where I was going but he was the one saying sorry to me. And it made me all the more sorry and so I cried harder. They must had misinterpreted my crying so my mother embraced me tight and brought me into my room to sing me to sleep. I wanted to tell my mother the truth. I really did. But I couldn’t seem to talk before she lulled me to sleep.

“And may I ask what the great Emilia is pondering that she has this really deep look in her beautiful eyes that could not seem to be shaken?” I heard Jake’s voice bring me back from my reverie.

“Shut up, you know I hate it when you call me that.” I bit and blushed. Jake must had seen my stupid look as I was thinking of the past. I should be embarrassed but I couldn’t let go of his remark about my beautiful eyes. I felt so light.

“But anyway Em, you know about Ashley Daniels right?” Jake grinned and I knew where this was going.

Ashley Daniels. The beautiful Ashley Daniels who had cherry blonde hair and a body any guy would die for. Of course when I said any guy it meant Jake Martin was not an exception.

“So what about her?” Acting like you didn’t actually care to a matter that you care greatly can be so hard but not when you were already used to it. Jake had dated so many girls before and as much as I didn’t want to act like a crazy jealous best friend that drives away his pretty girlfriends, I just couldn’t help it.

“Nothing. You know she’s really nice. And you’re my best friend so I feel like telling you. I mean don’t you want to know? And well, Em, I know what you’ve been doing to those girls I’ve dated before."

I acted as if I didn't know what he was talking about. But who am I fooling? Jake Martin? Really?

"You know I let you do it because they were only flings.But it’s different this time Em. I don’t want you to do anything regarding Ashley except of course for you to like her. Well, she’s nice so I guess you would really like her.” Jake continued.

“Yeah whatever.” I said as I heard the bell ring.

I hurriedly turned away from him and head for the school building. I mean, I really couldn’t believe what he just said. He was getting serious this time? What was he, settling down already?

I was going to the garden to see my mother. I was told to dress and head directly to where I usually spend my late afternoon because my mother had mentioned something about a visitor. I wondered who it could be. I never had real friends. But when I saw that brown haired boy who I bumped into last night, I knew I was disappointed. I didn’t want to see him because I was so ashamed of what I did… or rather what I did not do. I was supposed to tell my mother what really happened last night but I was not able to talk to her as she was busy.

“Emily, come here. This is Mrs. Martin and her son Jake. He is just the same age as you are. Greet them.” My mother addressed the beautiful smiling woman sitting in front of her. I said a little hello and smiled but I was not very good at doing the same thing with her son.

As my mother and Mrs. Martin continued talking, Jake went to play in the distant garden. And I decided to follow him.

“I don’t really like you.” He suddenly told me. I guess he was still mad at me. “You’re just like any other spoiled brat!” He spit the words as if they were poison in his mouth.

I was walking my butt to my next class when Nikki intercepted me in the hallways. This was one of those five classes that I had with her. And well I mean I felt really glad that I had it with my best friend.

We went to class together which was by the way my class with Ashley Daniels. I sat down and I just stared at her. I didn’t usually ignore lectures because I was the type who cared about grades but I just couldn't help it. I wanted to stare at her and ponder what Jake saw in her. Yeah she was beautiful but I bet she was just like any other pretty slutty girls in there. And so I kept doing the staring thing the whole time. Thank goodness the teacher didn’t notice me not paying any attention to his lectures. The bell rang and I was still there sitting and staring. She was just sitting two chairs away from the right of the person sitting in front of me so it wasn't really a surprise when she noticed me.

“Is there a problem Emily?” Ashley asked.

Yeah you’re flirting with my boy, I thought. Okay so not exactly my boy. I managed to answer her with my most chill voice. “Are you and Jake dating?”

“Yeah... wait, are you two also dating? Oh my god, I didn’t know. I’m sorry.”

Oh dear, this girl could be too assuming. Not that the idea she was getting was hard to absorb. Jake and I were practically best friends so she probably knew me hanging out with him. Not that I didn’t like her getting the impression that Jake and I were dating. But I mean I couldn’t lie to her. So I told her we weren’t and left. I head to my locker and saw my best friend waiting.

“I was waiting for you so that we could come here together but you seem busy with that Ashley girl so I decided to drop my things first in my locker then wait for you here and ask.” I was always amazed that my best friend could talk in a straight sentence without having to pause. She practically said it without breathing and I was pretty sure it was because of her curiousity. But before I answered her, I put my things in the locker first because I knew that she was dying to know the answer. I was just teasing her a bit.

“Hurry up, spill it already.” Nikki blushed. Haha thought so. She was impatient and all that.