A Tale of Two Idiots

What am I?

My job was simple.
At work I was civil.
I handled clients with ease.
A promotion wasn't hard to seize.

I met people of all ages,
young and old,
I never went beyond a handshake,
Thinking they all just come and go.

Thinking they could hurt me,

like you did.

This smile you see, that's painted on my face.
Damn it's cause of you,
When you led me on a chase.

You hurt me on purpose, but that's okay.

I just never thought there would be someone,
Who could make my world look so grey.

When I lost you.

Or rather,

When you left me.

I would never love someone like I loved you,
That you made sure of.
For if your plan were to succeed,
I would no longer know love.

Raven black hair, green eyes,
I could never see through any of your lies.
A chiseled jawline,
a smirk played on your lips.
One look was all it took,
Before I fell,

Hopelessly,

In love,

With the wrong,

Person.

You played me like a fiddle,
That I can't deny.
All I want to ask is,
Why?

I knew something wasn't right.
Of all the stories I could write,
This one seemed, the most trite.

I know, I know,
Like all cliches,
This one has a heart,
That's been torn in two.

By a handsome young lad,
Who would leave me all sad.
When he's gone I should be glad,
But I simply couldn't, bid him adieu.

But this time there wouldn't be,
A knight in shining armor,

And really,

I shouldn't still love you,
After all the things you did.
But yet I still do,
This feeling I couldn't get rid.

when u left,
you took my heart with you.
i had nothing left,
and you knew it too.

now without a sense of purpose,

i drift aimlessly, floating,

like I've never known the ground.

i don't think I've ever felt this down.

i go through each day without much thought,

always asking,

if the pain would ever stop.

i don't know what to do,

i'm slowly sinking into this abyss,

but i'm not sure if there's anything i can do.

i'm falling,

deeper,

further,

down.

i'm not sure,
what i'm supposed to be.

now that he's gone,
and it's just me.

i'm lost,
without directions.

i know what it cost,
but i'm not making any corrections.

i guess what i'm trying to say is,

i still

don't know

what am i

...without him

Hi wab here sorry to the 2 people reading for not updating I was on holiday and had no wifi for 6 days so I couldn't wattpad :')