Beyond Horizons

C is for Cute

Our friendly ice cream date escalated quickly. We laughed so hard at each others' antics. She was like a free soul, so like me.

We laughed our asses off. I  noticed how comfortable she is with me. She was very touchy. She grabbed my hand one time and traced circles on my palm like it was a natural thing to do.

Did I mention that my stomach and my body was ultimately disturbed by the little touches she does? She even touched my knee which made my stomach do somersaults and I shivered.

Damn you Arya. Did she ever consider what others may feel? If she continued to do it I would probably become as horny as hell. I would not want that.

I thanked the heavens when we both noticed the time. She said she needed to go home. Also, she brought her car. I did not bring mine because it is nonexistent.

I walked with her where she parked. I insisted that she did not have to give me a ride since my cousin's place was near the already closed mall.

"Is it really safe for you to walk to your cousin's house?" She sounded almost worried.

"Yup, positive. Don't worry I will text you as soon as I get there. You do the same, okay?" I said with a wink. I gained a lot of confidence after four hours of talking to her.

"Okay, please be careful. Text you when I get home. See you tomorrow?" She smiled.

"Yeah. Will do" I reciprocated a smile.

"Bye Zayne" Before finally getting in her car, she leaned in and kissed me on my left cheek. It felt like my whole body turned into a bulb.

I was buzzing with so much feeling. I was on cloud nine. Imagine the feeling I will have when we will actually kiss. I'll be damned if that happens.

It took me more than thirty seconds to respond.

"Good bye Arya"

I watched her took off before I started trudging towards my cousin's house. I immediately entered the small room that I occupy whenever I am there.

Once inside, I turned on my phone and discovered that I have more than 20 messages from my girlfriend Jen.

I felt so guilty, so I called her. I lied that I had to do overtime at work and forgot to charge my phone. I told her how tired I was and how much I want to rest already. She somehow understood and told me to rest. I hate myself for not having enough courage to break up with her.

"I am sorry Jen. I should be loving you, I tired but I can't, not the same way you expect me to. What do I do with you?" I whispered to myself as if she will hear me and end both our misery.

"Why can't I be honest with her and with myself?" A ring brought me back to reality.

Arya Colmenares calling...

I answered her immediately.

"Hey, I was a little worried. The moment arrived I texted you but after 30 minutes there was no reply. So, I thought something bad happened" she said with a worried voice

"I'm sorry. I had to receive a call from a close friend" I reasoned out.

"Don't be sorry. I was just worried. Next time, I will drop you off no matter how near the place you're going to" Awwee. She really is concerned about me. It made my heart expand hearing her concern for me.

"Thanks Arya" I meant it with all me.

We talked until our eyes could no longer hold it. I ended the call when I could already hear her soft slow breathing.

***

SUNDAY

I woke up to my alarm. I need to go to work the whole day. I needed to do a lot of writing and designing. Every Saturday and Sunday I get to design the layout of the Sunday and Monday newspaper.

Opened my phone and immediately sent messages.

To A: Hey. Good morning. Have a great day ahead.

To Jen: Hey, baby. Good morning. Sorry for last night. I have a whole day of work. Tyl. luv u

Jen: Good morning babe. I love you too. Take care.

Jen: Zayne, please tell me you are not entertaining other girls there. I need assurance that you are serious about us.

To Jen: I am not baby. I am serious. I am being good. 😇

Damn. Cheers to all people who lie not to hurt others. Forgive me
Jisoos.

Jen: Okay. Take care of yourself.

Z: Okay baby. You too.

I know.You have all the right to be angry at me for possibly hurting my girlfriend. Damn. I feel like I am cheating.

I should just distance myself from Arya. Maybe that would help me get over this "crush" thing with her.

Phone buzzed with a new message. I was not able to stop myself from grinning really wide as I saw Arya's name on my screen.

A: Good morning cutie. What time will you arrive at the dorms tonight?

She has never stopped calling me cute last night. Cute is too far from my slightly bulky frame.

Z: Why do you insist I am cute? I will not be back at the dorms tonight. 

I need a break from seeing her. I don't need complications in my life. I am attracted to Arya. I cannot deny that. If I see her again and have lengthy talks with her I might fall for her. This can't happen.

A: Awee. Why not? I was planning on bringing you milk tea.

Z: Hmmm.. too bad. I need to do an overtime for work. Will be back tomorrow though.

A: Okay. Let's sit together at lunch then?

Why is she making it so hard for me to avoid her? Ugh! What should I tell her? Do I want to make her feel bad?

Z: Okay. See you then A.

A: See you around Zee. Please take care of yourself.😘

I was almost too distracted while at work because of the emoji she used. I had to go to the comfort room to give myself a pep talk about my future and my dreams.

Arya what will I do with you?