Beyond Horizons

H is for Heated

Having a journal together made us closer. It cemented the feelings that we felt before. Immediately we both knew who our crushes are. We both discovered that we like each other more than friends. This made us inseparable on weekends. I made sure that I spent every possible free time I had with her. From Friday evening to Monday afternoon, we both made sure that we are together. She even goes with me to the office so that we could spend Saturday mornings together. This paved way to getting closer and closer to each other romantically. 

We went to dates and did study dates together enjoying each beautiful time with each other. We both knew and have an idea of what we felt for each other but we did not want to rush to be in a relationship. Having another relationship on top of the one I have also made me very hesitant to face a new one. This did not hinder us to physically act on our feelings. 

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FLASHBACK

It was Sunday evening we were both so busy the whole day with our respective schedules. Arya spent the day with her parents. It was very rare that her parents were around so she took the opportunity to spend it with them. I was half glad that she was not with me because I was able to finish all of my work ahead of time. 

Her parents flew out of the country that evening and their house help were given a day off, so we had their whole house to ourselves. We planned to have dinner together. I cooked for us in their grand kitchen which contained all a chef could ever ask for.  

As I was cooking, as always Arya snaked her arms around my waist, back hugging me. It made me feel so secure and comfortable. It felt like we were a married couple. She sniffed my hair and neck. It made my stomach do somersaults again. 

 You cooking for me is really touching. Don't spoil me too much I might fall for you. She whispered in my ear with so much love. 

 Hmmm. I only aim to please you. Why don't you sit down and relax so that I could finish our dinner. I told her.

I just missed you. I want to cuddle with you. Damn. How can she be so sexy and seductive. What will I do with her? 

I'm sure we'll do that later after dinner. I said as a matter of fact.

Hmmmmkay. She responded with a nod and untangled herself from me and proceeded to their humongous living room. 

I made carbonara and pizza for our dinner. Both are our favorites. I wanted her to know how much I love taking care of her.

Right after preparing our food I called her. We ate dinner and she told me about her day with her parents. I listened to her attentively. I made sure she knew that she has all of my attention.

Much to our dismay my close friend Claire called me on my phone. She told me that she needed my help that night. Also, she said that I could sleep over. I owe the person a lot so I needed to go. I told Arya about it and she insisted that she will come with me because she does not want to be alone in a huge house.

I agreed with her knowing that Claire wouldn't mind about having Arya over. She knows me.

We used Arya's car and reached Claire's apartment. She has two bedrooms. I have used the other one more than I can count but it is too cramped for two people.

I finished Claire's favor in 2 hours while they chatted. I did not know what they talked about but they seemed to be having fun. Claire told me she has to sleep because she needed to be early for class the next day to pass the one she asked me to do.

It was too late to drive back to Arya's house so we decided to crash on Claire's extra room.

It was already dawn. I was exhausted but my brain won't shut down.

Hey. Are you still awake? I asked her.

Yup. Widely. She responded and faced me. I could barely see her but I know she is staring at me.

Damn. I badly want to kiss her.

I want to kiss you too. She said with equal urgency.

Did I just say that out loud for her to reply?

Yes, you did. I can sense her smirking.

I touched her face and kissed her senseless. She was too stunned to respond. I laughed to dissipate the awkwardness.

She grabbed my face and initiated the kiss and we ended up breathless. We did again and again but stopped when it became too much. We did not want to have sex when we are not in a relationship yet.

Her kisses made me want more.

END OF FLASHBACK

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I woke up cheery but a little late because my phone was with Arya the whole night. She borrowed it because she needed the app I have that could not be transferred or downloaded on her Iphone.

She returned my phone with our journal in our classroom. She did not look at me. I read her entry and it broke me heart to know that she found out that I am in a relationship with Jen. She was heartbroken. I knew I hurt her. I knew I stabbed her. I hurt that person that I am falling for.

Her entry made my heart shatter into pieces. I knew I betrayed her. She was devastated because I was not honest with her. I was glued in my seat. Silent tears fell on my face. I knew she cried the whole night. I can see her eyes so red and puffy. I made her feel miserable. It broke me to see her so sad. I wish I can just buy her ice cream and it will solve everything. I needed to explain to her and tell her every single thing.

I owe her an explanation. I need to tell her how sorry I am. I do not want to lose her. I need her. I can't just let her go, now that I am sure I love her.