Bizzle imagines

34. I Need Her(sad, meaningful)

Imagine based off The Heart Wants What It Wants by Selena Gomez(no hate plz).
P.s. Selena's not in the story...

Justin's POV:
"What does love mean to you?" Alfredo's voice is distant in the background.

"Love?.. I think it's a swelling you feel in your heart. Love is accepting someone, being there for them. You can be mad at someone or hurt by them and you'll still love them-"

"-It's a very strong feeling that doesn't just envelope your heart. You feel it in your bones, in your brain. You just want to do anything for that person, no matter how many times they piss you off or make a mistake, you find it in you too forgive-"

"-It's wishing someone the best, supporting them through tough times, understanding what their going through, and giving your all" She answered, sniffling back a cry and nodding while smiling lightly.

"..How can you tell when your in love?" Alfredo asks, tone still staying the same, distant and soft.

"I think it's this clenching feeling. Your just smitten with them, you want to be the very best for them. Everything they do, you want to be there when they do it. When they breathe, you want to share that breath. When they smile..you want to be the reason-"

"-You get protective and jealous... You'll know when your in love when it arises. You'll feel it and it will be hard to explain. But you will feel a great amount of respect, compassion, and warmth for that person" She gulps and smiles weakly before picking at something on her pants.

"Do you believe in love at first sight?" She rubs her hands together and looks up.

"I believe in finding someone you find attractive. And I believe in chemistry. If you can't connect with someone, can't relate..then your screwed. I would call it 'crush at first sight'.-"

"-Love takes time, we grew to love our mothers when were born. At the time, they are a stranger to us, we don't know who they are but we grow to love them. And so no I don't believe in love at first sight but I believe in connecting with someone and thinking 'hey, I like you. Our minds connect, suppose our hearts may too'" She states and the water in her eyes simmers.

"..Have you ever been in love?" Alfredo asks quietly. Her eyes water now but she forces herself to smile.

"Yes" she smiles softly and a tear slides down her cheek that she catches with her finger.

"Justin, He was-is my everything" she smiles and looks down but I can see the pain. "I love him... I knew the real him and I knew he loved me.." She trails off and looks up, some tears falling down her beautiful face as she held a sad smile.

"I knew his heart and that he would never intend on purposely hurting me.." her voice cracked, smile fading.

"I know the reason we didn't make it was because others didn't accept us.. Suppose love isn't strong enough to take down haters. I can't ignore hate, I can't mess with Scooter and Justin's friends and especially his fans-"

"-I must be a throwaway because he loved me but he didn't fight for me. He couldn't lose his career over me and I understand that, he needs his fans and worked hard to get to where he is.-"

"-But..but I believe that when you truly love someone..you fight for them" she Intakes a breath before her face crinkles to release more tears.

"And I tried really hard to keep strong, for him. I didn't want him to worry about me and have any stress then he already did. It seemed that..that...that what we had was nothing.-"

"-You can't help who you fall in love with and I feel so stupid for falling for him. I should've been ready, ready to break up. But his love made me forget, made me think it was never possible for us to separate" more tears fell down her cheeks as her voice cracked, not sounding dramatic or fake one bit.

She's handed a tissue and wipes her eyes shyly then looks away at nothing. I know that look, she does it when she's in pain.

"I fought for him, I gave up a lot, and I've learned that, be careful with who you fall for because they may not feel the same way about you... But I can't be mad at him, I can't hate him" she states strongly, a tear running down her cheek as she looks in the direction Alfredo's voice came from.

"I can't because he gave me so much, he loved me for who I am. And he needs to choose his career, he needs to side with scooter no matter how much it hurts me" she croaks, biting her bottom lip softly for a second before a couple more tears fall.

"I'm in pain" she gulps away the tears and nods, watching herself fiddle with her fingers in her lap.

"Love is pain" she giggles but it turns into a little sob.

She wipes her tears and looks back up.

"Love is the most amazing, beautiful feeling in the world, we need more of it. But love is also the most heartbreaking, awful thing here on this planet. It builds you up.." She sucks in a sob.

"And it breaks you down" she croaks.

"What does love mean to me? It's something we deal with throughout our lifetime, we have to face it. You cannot escape it and when you fall in love with that one person, that one person that you adore so much you feel they could do no wrong.-"

"-Love will break you and crush you but will build you and make you stronger" she finishes, wiping away her tears and smiling a sad lip grin.

"How are you doing now? Where does Justin stand in your life?" Alfredo asks and she shifts in her chair.

"I um.." She trails off, looking down before back up.

"I've been happier, defiantly happier" she nods and gulps, looking teary as she tries to keep a smile.

"Justin was my happiness and so I'm trying to figure out what life is..what life is without him" she croaks, still giving a little smile as a tear drips down.

"I miss him" she breaks, more tears falling down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry" she breathes out, wiping her tears with the tissue.

"No no-" Alfredo's voice is cut off.

I don't realize I'm bawling till the video goes dead, a hand is on my shoulder and Scooters voice is muted in my ear.

I was watching a video Alfredo sent me. He visited her since we broke up and rolled a tape of them just talking without her even knowing.

"Justin, Justin" he repeats and my eyes are clouded with tears, head in my hands as my shoulders shake violently.

I wail and hiccup, sobbing and sobbing.

"I need her, I need her" I whisper to myself as I sniffle back the tears.

Pushing scooter off me, I spring up and grab my coat from my couch as I rush to the door.

"Justin where are you going?" Scooter calls after me, following after me.

I spin around and look at him with watery eyes, jaw clenching.

"I'm getting her back. I'm choosing to fight for her" I snarl out and leave without another word, scooters mouth hung open.

The sky is dark, the air is cool and I get in my car, resting my head on the steering wheel. My tears calm and I gasp for breath, gripping the wheel till my knuckles turn white.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry baby" I whimper.

The tears come back and I shake my head against the steering wheel slowly.

"I'm coming, I'm coming, I'm coming" I repeat in a whisper as I lift my head off the wheel, wipe my tears and turn on my car.

"Its okay, I'm coming..and I'm never letting you go" I whisper as I drive out of my driveway, racing to her, to y/n.