Soft Side

Chapter nineteen

We were sat on the plane to Mexico, my eyes staring out of the window as I watch the clouds floating past. It was a mixture between the most boring and the most beautiful view I had ever seen. My mind was completely broken apart. I was in love with Harry, every part of my heart invested in the curly haired man who conveniently was sat beside me with his hand on my knee, watching a series on his iPad. Since the first day I met him accidentally, there's been something that keeps pulling me towards him. Whenever something goes wrong I feel him sneaking into my mind. He's my source of comfort, my happiness and the reason I'm on this tour. I wanted to work everything out with him because I knew in my heart that he loved me too.

On the other hand, there was one little piece of my heart that Harry didn't have. Niall had it. There was something there with Niall which had formed over the last few weeks. Niall had always been my best friend since I met him, but there was something more than friendship between us. It had started the first time we slept together. He gave me one of the best nights I had ever had, but I wasn't supposed to start catching feelings. I was unsure if I had more than friendship with Niall. Did he love me? Did I love him.

My eyes closed as the sky outside grew darker, stopping my view of the large clouds beneath the plane. I laid my head against the window on my travel pillow, trying my hardest to fall asleep but I just couldn't do it. I sigh softly, taking a walk up the aisle of the plane, realising there was nowhere else to go and sitting back down at my seat. Harry looked over, squeezing my knee softly and offering me one of his earphones. I take it gratefully, resting my head against his shoulder as he presses play. I hated flying at the best of times, let alone when my heart was so torn.

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I stood in the hotel, pinning part of my hair to the side of my head before straightening out my dress. My makeup was done to a flawless manner as I knew there would be photographs. We were attending a party tonight, to celebrate the album doing so well. I smile softly, wearing an emerald green dress with a low cut front showing the curve of my breasts, stopping when the hem came to my high thigh. I felt like a million dollars tonight and I couldn't wait to show my outfit to everybody. I had managed to get myself a solo room for tonight since there was one show in Mexico before we headed to North America.

I slid into a taxi, giving the driver the address and texting Niall to say I was on my way. The boys had already headed there because of it being there party. I knew how many celebrities were going to be there, so I needed to make sure I was on my best behaviour and that I looked incredible. I thanked the driver, jumping out of the taxi and showing my ID to the security guard outside. I walked in, trying to locate somebody I recognised. The lights were flashing and the music was loud as I then spotted Louis. I heard him cheer across the music at the fact that I made it, making me laugh softly as I walk over. My heels clicking across the floor as I feel two pairs of eyes on me.

Harry and Niall were both catching flies.

I smile softly, hugging Liam hello as my eyes lock with Harry, then locking with Niall. A smile on my lips as I walk to the bar, ordering a drink. I felt a hand on my hip as I turned my head, finding Harry stood beside me with a smile. "You look incredible" he says into my ear, sending a shiver down my spine as I smile gently, taking my glass of wine into my hands and sipping it. "Let me introduce you to somebody" he smiles and takes my hand gently. He guides me across the floor, taking me towards a gentleman.

"Nice to meet you, the names Gary. I write some of the boys songs" he smiles, holding his hand out. "How do you know Harry?" He questions raising his eyebrow as I shake his hand politely.

"It's uh- it's complicated" I say softly, nodding my head as I look at my drink. Harry smiles, continuing to chat to him.

"What do you do for work miss-" he starts, realising he didn't know my name.

"Sophie" I say softly "and uh- I don't currently have a job" I say quietly, nervous about the reaction. I look up, seeing the guy before me nodding. "I'm uh- I'm going to find the others" I say softly, squeezing Harry's hand gently and walking away.

I breath out, completely finishing my drink within seconds and grabbing another. As I began to walk back to Liam and Zayn, I feel a hand grab mine and pull my towards them. "Soph I want you to meet Bella" he smiles with his hand on my lower back. "She's a-" he starts as I smile.

"I know who she is" I say gently as she raises her eyebrows, questioning me on how I know Niall. What is this? Question soph day? "We're friends" I say softly, as Niall smirks.

"What do you do for a job?" She asks, folding her arms across her chest.

"I uh- I don't currently work" I utter as she scoffs.

"So you're just sponging off of these guys?" She laughs as she places a hand on Niall's shoulder. "Should have known when they brought you along tonight?" She laughs as I turn and begin to walk out. I could hear Niall shouting after me as I leave the building.

"Soph" I hear someone shout. It wasn't Niall or Harry.

It was Becky, dawning a gold low back dress that was tight and stopped mid thigh. She looked so good. She was holding something;

a glass of wine in her hand for me.

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"She's just a bitch" I sigh. "Nobody cares that I'm here. Nobody wants to know me they just want to know if I'm using all of their money. They're all more concerned about why I don't have a job and nobody is even bothered" I rant, sipping my wine as I look at my hands. "And to top it off, why out of all people did Niall decide she was a good idea? Look at me. I'm a fucking train wreck compared to her"

A sigh left my lips as I look at Becky, feeling tears prick my eyes as I mention my body confidence. I had always struggled with that and having Niall and Harry both want me gave me a boost, but now I felt like I was back at square one.

"Soph you are beautiful" Becky says softly, sipping her drink. "You've had two of the most amazing guys running after you. They're two of the most attractive guys in this planet and you've had them both Soph" she nods with a smile. "With regards to the job front, let me sort you out" she smiles, "forget what happened between us. Us girls need to stick together" she says softly, squeezing my hand gently. "I can see how much time you took to get ready for tonight, and you look incredible".

I nod, not saying a word. I still felt like shit.

"Thanks" was all that left my mouth, a small smile on my lips before fading away again.

"I'm just going to grab something okay?" She says softly as I just nod. I wasn't planning on going back inside any time soon. We were outside of the building, so there was paparazzi being held back by security.

"Hey beautiful" was all I heard, my eyes lifting to see Harry. I smile softly, swirling the wine in my glass. "Becky told me what happened" he says softly, sipping his drink in his hands. "I'm all honesty, my eyes have been on you since the moment you walked in. You look absolutely gorgeous tonight Soph" he says softly. His fingers finding mine and locking with them. Harry really thought I was beautiful. It did make it a impression on me, reminding me how in love we were.

"I miss you" I say quietly, my eyes lifting to look at him as he leans in.

"I miss you too Soph" he says gently, his lips pressing to mine, both of us ignoring the flashes from the paparazzi. "And you know that dress won't be doing anything other than laying on the floor tonight" he groans, smirking softly as I slap his arm, taking his hand in mine and walking back inside with him, to spend my evening with the man I loved.