Feelings Are Stupid

Dear Readers,

Well the first thing to say in this piece of shit you're all about to read is my name.  Hi internet my name is Kurtis and well my life is pretty crazy... (Ignore that Tik Tok reference). I'm not lying my life has been one huge mess, but more recently, as in the last few years, my life has really mellowed out.  Well to start it all off I am... was... an orphan.  My father and mother were both addicted to this thing called drugs.  Yeah those meetings you attend in high school about how drugs are bad... listen to them.  My mom died when I was 6 and my dad when I was 7.  I went into foster care and then went through a custody battle with my foster parents and my aunt and uncle.  I know I am a lucky kid I had two families fighting over me.  Anyone who doesn't know this a custody battle can get pretty lengthy; It took almost three years for my adoption to be final, and I got adopted by my aunt and uncle.  It was mainly my testimony that secured home base for my parents (uncle and aunt).  After my adoption I got to change my last name and officially be apart of the family that I know today.  I've tried to call my parents mom and dad, but It just doesn't taste right coming out.  I call them mom and dad to my friends and when I am explaining them to someone, but not to them.  Speaking the words mom and dad have such power that people do not realize.  I always hear my friends just yell out for their mom or say "I love you dad".  That is pure power my friends.  Don't get me wrong I love my parents just as much as if they actually birthed and helped conceive me, it just hits different when you get to say mom or dad and they answer to those pronouns.  Anyways before I get too distracted by internal struggle of the human language and pronouns, I have one last major plot twist in my life.  I am a male who likes males.  Yeah get your bibles and crosses, I'm gay... hella gay.  I say that's one major part of my life because being gay not only defined me growing up, but it also shaped my personality and who I would become today.  It was a journey from start to finish, but my coming out story is for another journal entry.  This is just the author's note on the back of the novel to explain the shit show to follow.

xoxo Kurtis