Feelings Are Stupid

College- I've Been in Your Shoes-

College...

For some that word is scary... while for some it is synonymous with possibilities.  It was both for me. As a senior I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life.  I thought for a split second that Nursing could be the career for me. Mainly liked the idea of making good money while also helping people, but naive senior me forgot that nurses had to deal with some gross bodily fluids and functions that I personally could not stomach.  So I changed my future plan to business because I wanted to open my own event planning company.  (BTW all this debate is awhile I was still in high school) Once the school year started at my community college.  I was able to go for free and have them basically pay me to go to school. Very good opportunity for me.  First piece of advice from me, if you are able to go to any college for free, GO GET THE FREE EDUCATION.  Well with my one business class I was taking that semester, Marketing, made me realize the business path was not for me.  So I then change my major to Social Work,  because I still wanted the fulfillment that nursing would bring.  I enjoy Social Work. I interned at Child Protective Services and it is a hard field to be in, but it is also very rewarding.  I just am not sure anymore, and I am now in my second year.  The deadline to finally stick to a major without having to take an extra semester is coming up.  I have to decide what I want to do.  This past fall semester was the worst for me personally.  I was going through a lot of internal shit and my emotions were just not letting me process shit the way I needed too.  So I started to skip classes because I just didn't feel like getting out of bed to commute to school, and then my mindset at the time said It was okay because they were easy classes, but no matter how easy the class if you start skipping a lot you're going to miss important material that will in the end haunt your final grade.  Luckily for me I have a great advisor and best friend that helps me sort out the shit in my head, and I got this semester in check, hopefully.  What I am trying to convey is that going into college you might not be in the major you're meant to be in and that is totally fine.  Change it and change it again. Find the major you love, because you're the one spending all that money on a degree.  Imagine going to college for four years and earning yourself a degree in a field you despise.  You will hate your job if you go down that path, or you will just not use the degree you got and it would be a waste of money.  On the other hand college is not for everyone, if you think a technical school would suit your lifestyle better, do that!  It's your life and you get to decide how you want to live it.  Live the best life you can because you only get to live it once.  

xoxo Kurtis