Feelings Are Stupid

Starting New

Well the last few months have been really crazy.  Between the idea of Corona taking the world by storm was funny at first.  It became a serious reality quick.  My college went online, which totally sucked, and then we all had to wear masks and gloves at work, which was also not fun. It created this mass hysteria, and I for one never really feel anything towards hysteria, but there were moments where my confidence swayed.  Once I finished my schooling, I stated my summer classes, and little did I know they were online also.  I got a C on my first summer course because it was so hard to teach your self about cultures and geography.  Now I am in my second summer course, and it is just as hard as the one before.  I absolutely hate schooling online.  I can not fathom how some people are thriving right now due to this whole fucking situation.  

This past week though has been one of the hardest weeks I have had to endure in some time.  I got a new job, but then we closed because my co worker contracted Covid, and now I am stuck in a self quarantine.  After that shit show I ended up getting cut from my academic program due to reasons I don't know.  Now I have to take out loans to pay for my schooling, but guess what I do not qualify for loans or student aide.  GO LIFE!  Only to make matters worse my bank for some reason took my debit card at the ATM, and I also overdrew three times, and got 60$ in the whole with them.  I had the money in my account, and had bills to pay.  I have no clue where the money went before my bills were taken out.  

Now I am working on a newish, kinda the same novel I was before.  It has a whole new concept, plot, characters.  The only thing that is truly different is that there is now a story behind my characters, and the government involved in this dystopian.  I mean I am now in quarantine so I may as well benefit by exercising my mind and creating a shitty story for a few of my friends to enjoy and lie to me about how good it is.  Honestly I can think out a great storyline in my head and imagine it all, but once I have to use my mind and put it on paper it goes to shit.  I don't have the words or the class to perform such works.  Maybe it comes with practice, but maybe it doesn't.  

Anyways, Chile.