The Empty Chair (Matthew Espinosa Fanfic)

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Chrissy's Pov

They took me back here they didn't listen to what I had to say.They don't care about me this is all for them this is all so they won't break into pain. But what about me what about my pain there not leaving the world I am why would they do that why would they.....it's just Complicated.

Chrissy are you listening the doctor said to me from the side of my bed

Yes I mean no I said sitting up and turning to him

Your being transferred to a more comfortable room he said writing on his clipboard

And why is that I said in confusion I felt a cough coming on so I lifted my hands to my pale skin covering my mouth

You have 1 day Chrissy I'm sorry he said standing up and walking out

Tears streamed down my eyes I was terrified but that soon turned into anger and I cringed my face and grabbed my food tray throwing it at the door as it closed

I got out of my bed walking to the small table and chairs on the other side of the room today was my birthday. I grabbed a box from the table and took the small cookie out of it lighting Nash's box of matches on a tooth pick and sticking it in the cookie I put me hands on the table and layer my chin on them

"Happy birthday to me Happy birthday to me happy birthday to Christina happy birthday to me" I sung quietly breaking into soft tears.

The nurse came in and blew out the toothpick throwing the cookie into the trash and sticking a needle into my arm my vision got cloudy and I drifted off

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I woke up in a new hospital room I looked to my right and saw Matthew sleeping in the doctors stool resting his head on my bed I shifted trying not to wake him up but as usual I failed

Hey Chrissy he said his eyes red probably from crying and sleep deprivation

Hey I said my voice soft and I turned around

I know your mad at us but I need to talk to you he said

What I said rolling my eyes and turning back around

I'm still in love with you he blurted out then putting his head down

Matthew I-I don't know what you want me to say I said looking at him his eyes made contact with mine I missed him I really odd but what was I supposed to say

I know I just...I don't know Chris he said standing up and pacing around the room running his hands through his hair i guess I just wanted you to say you still loved me to he said turning to me

Matthew I can't do this right now I said to him

We'll wen are we going to talk about this Chris we can still be together and we can be happy again he said to me

Matthew what do you want me to say I'm dying okay I won't live to see the sunset tomorrow I broke up with Aaron I know but it wasn't for you it was for him he knows I won't live I did it for him for his pain not because I still love you I blurted out lifting my hand to cover my mouth but putting it back down

So you don't love me anymore he said looking at me

I stayed there emotionless and he stormed out of the room I felt tears run down my face and picked up my phone to call the only person that I really needed the phone rang three times and it finally picked up

Maddy?