The Empty Chair (Matthew Espinosa Fanfic)

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Chrissy's Pov

I woke up screaming instantly covering my mouth not wanting to wake Aaron up I woke him up 5 times this week I don't want there to be a 6th I just honestly feel bad I love him I just hate that I'm doing this to him and he won't give up on my it's not like I want him to I just want him to be happy and I don't want him to have sleepless nights worrying about me or if I have a anxiety attack or if I just eventually stop breathing which is going to happen in two weeks and he's going to have to go through that pain and I don't want that I don't want that for anyone not for any of the boys or mahogany But I can't have everything life being one of them apparently I stepped out of bed slipping on my ugs and my coat and Walked out the door silently it was 8 am and I decided to go to the Starbucks across the street I can walk barely but I have to be careful Cameron wants me to get a cane but I yelled at him and kicked him out of my room I don't know why i guess it just made me feel like a pest to them to have to see them watch over me like that

What do you want the lady at the cashier said looking down at her phone

Oh um I'll just take a cappuccino I said and looked through my purse for my money but I remembered I left it on the nightstand

Any day now she said still looking down at her phone

I forgot my wallet at home you can just forget it I said looking at her

She looked up briefly then putting her head back down and looking up fast again Wait oh my gosh your Christina hope Lowe your my idol she said in a rather high pitched tone

Yea thanks sorry for the inconvenience I'll go get my wallet I said turning on my heel

No no it's ok you can just take it she said heading to the back to start the coffee

No I can pay it's fine I said heading toward the door

No really I got it your covered she said starting to make the coffee

I was going to argue back but a arm reached over the counter and handed the cashier a 5 dollar bill

I'll pay for you he said and I turned around to see it was Cameron and Matthew

I glared at him and stormed out of the Starbucks

Chrissy he said running after me

You forgot your coffee Cameron said and handed it to me

A tear rolled down my cheeks and I mumbled a thanks before turning around and continuing walking

Wait what's wrong Matthew said after me my hear stopped at the sound of his voice I still wasn't over him I was frozen solid at the thought of him talking to me

I instantly recovered and turned around looking at them

What's wrong I asked what's wrong is this stupid coffee I said and threw it in the street

The coffee? I can always get you another one Cameron said starting for the Starbucks

No I said tears pouring out of my eyes you don't get it Its not just the coffee it's the treatments it's the cane it's the wheel chair it's the constant help of me not being able to do anything by my self

I don't understand Matthew said

I feel like I can't do anything by myself I feel like I can't even breathe without one of you coming to my side making sure it wasn't my last breath I screamed at them

Your not a pain if that's what you think Chris we just want to help you he said but I turned around I heard him sigh and walk closer to my grabbing my arm and turning me around Let us help you he said

I don't need your help I said yanking my arm out of his grip and heading down the street but this time he didn't run after me it's just a small part of me wanted him to