Shawmila✘Hope It Meant Something To You[DISCONTINUED]

The Test

"how did I get here?" asked Shawn as he reluctantly got out of bed,Justin looked at him like he had asked dumbest the question on the planet.

"i dont know Mendes,a unicorn brought you here," Justin answered,not so very kindly.

Any comeback Shawn might have thought of was cut off by the feeling of liquid forcefully making  it's way up his throat.

Shawn quickly jumped out of bed and headed straight to the toilet pot and let it all out,he had no idea what he drank the previous night for his body to react the way it did,he felt like 'if hangover was a person'.

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Justin drove Shawn home,The ride was awkward,Shawn didn't look at Justin's direction, he stared out of the window and occasionally stared at his phone.

"Okay, Mendes" Shawn heard Justin sigh so he stared at him.

"Tell me, what's wrong with you?" He questioned, Shawn cleared his throat and shook his head.

"um...sorry,can you repeat that, please?" Shawn said,because for a second there Justin Drew Bieber actually sounded like he genuinely wanted to know how he was doing?

"On second thought forget I asked," Justin said,regretting it admittedly.

Silence took over the car again.

Shawn felt like a sick-fu•ck,honestly he just screws everything up.

He kept his distance with his friends.

He hurt Mila.

He hasn't talked to his family for a long time.

And he almost put everyone's career in jeopardy when he was going through his "I hate Mila" phase.

"I screwed up big time," Shawn suddenly felt so small.

"I-I suck," he said,looking at Justin who glanced his direction.

"Why do you say so?" Justin said,he seemed unfazed by how vulnerable Shawn was being,maybe he was used to people being so weak or he just didn't care.

Shawn told him everything about his and Camila's relationship and how toxic it had become,from Camila using him to him finding out and making her pay.

Justin laughed, like actually laughed.

"What?! That's it?" He laughed.

"First of all Mendes,you and Camila are too dramatic,second what she did wasn't "using" you,it was more of a promotion it boasted both of your careers,and thirdly I didn't think you had it in you to hurt a fly, so congratulation you've become a professional Hollywood ass•hole and lastly don't feel bad about anything you do,it's fu•cking Hollywood morals,right and wrong don't exist here so don't sweat it,kid." He said,patting Shawn on shoulder.

"Both you and Camila wronged eachother,so what? Get back together or break the fu•ck up,simple."

Shawn couldn't believe his ears, Justin was a cold hearted son of a gun,wow.

"You really don't have any actual human feelings,do you?" Shawn questioned,Justin let out a hollow laugh,"Ever since I sold what was left of my soul,I couldn't give a fu•ck about, what anyone thought of me," said Justin, honestly.

Shawn blinked a few times and breathed out a "wow"

"Mendes,if I cry about every dumb thing I do,I'd be dehydrated,People are gonna hate no matter what you do,so its up to you-"

"-to not give a fu•ck" They both said,in sync.

"Exactly" Justin nodded approvingly.

"See we are not so different," Justin said,then they both laughed because, they were polar opposite.

"One more thing Mendes," Justin said when the laughing died down.

"Not a word of our 'bromance' to anyone,okay?" Justin putting emphasis on the word "bromance".

"Why?"

"One word: wattpad," Justin said.

Shawn frowned at the mention of the app but,he didn't care to ask for an explaination.

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08:30

Justin dropped Shawn to his apartment, Shawn said his 'thank you's then he was off to his house or wherever JB goes in the morning.

Shawn didn't want to face Mila but,he was done caring about anything and everything.

When he entered the apartment,it was quiet.

Maybe Camila wasn't home or probably she was already gone.

With a heavy sigh Shawn closed the door behind him,rubbing his face he made it towards the kitchen,everything seemed in place but,something felt off.

It was probably just in his head.

Letting out another breathe he grabbed a bottle of soda,opened it and gulped it down.

He didn't know he was thirsty until he finished the can.

Shawn made it upstairs to change into some fresh clothes,he already had taken a shower back at the hotel Justin took him but,unfortunately they didn't have clothes to offer there, so Shawn had to where his alcohol-puke outfit.

After getting cleaner clothes Shawn felt comfortable in his own skin again,finally.

Shawn saw a pink box on the bed,it looked familiar,he walked towards the bed and picked it up.

It was a...

"Pregnancy test." Shawn read.

What the hell was a pregnancy test doing here?

Was Camila,no.

She couldn't be.

Shawn's heartbeat going inhumanly fast,he was panicking.

"No."

He breathed.

He was going to go nuts.

He had to find that pregnancy test, Now.

He hurriedly walked towards the toilet in search of the test.

Shawn was relieved, terrified when he saw it on the ground.

He picked it up reluctantly and prayed it was negative,not because,he didn't want to be a father, he loved kids,he wanted a family but not now, not like this.

Shawn's hands were trembling,he was shaking,he didn't want to look at it.

He really didn't.

But,he had too.

After Two long breathes he looked at it.

Positive.

"No." He shook his head.

"Oh please no!"

Shawn was completely and utterly fu•cked.

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Author's Note

Hopefully u guys are still reading this.