BTS AU

28: confession

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A cold day in the middle of October. I was on my way to school, riding my bike.
I had an audition for this festival called Gimfest. I hesitated if I should audition or not, but I had talent, so I decided to test my luck.

When I arrived at my school, the kids were already sitting in the hallway.
I talked with a friend until a teacher arrived.

"We'll put you in a classroom right now, then we'll call you one by one." - he said and we followed.
Everyone took their seats, some were talking, some were practising their songs..

There were at least thirty kids in the classroom. From freshmen to seniors.
Everyone took their turn, and I went last.
I wanted to myself, cause I was nervous.

I entered the classroom and there were three teachers in it.
Two women and a guy.
I introduced myself, and when they gave me the permission, I started singing.
I was scared and really nervous that I forgot the lyrics.
Thankfully, they understood and let me read from my phone.

After singing the two songs, they told me I was free to go and said that the results would be out the next week.
I was excited. Of course, it wouldn't be a problem to me if I didn't get in.

But guess what? I did.

I was really happy that I started jumping around when they announced it on their page.
Eighteen of the kids that auditioned were in.

We chose our songs, then the music teacher called us every Monday so we could practice. Ten minutes for a student, it wasn't much. But after that, everything became more serious. We had rehearsals in Saturdays, too.

I didn't know many of the kids, but that's how friendships are made.
I may have seen some of them around the school, but I only knew the girl from my class.

There was this one boy that always caught my attention. With time, I couldn't get my eyes off of him.
He was attractive, he seemed warm-hearted and nice. We didn't talk much tho. We exchanged only a sentence, and I just simply..

Started liking him.

"It's impossible for him to like me. I mean, who can love someone like me? I don't have the looks, I'm super skinny, and those bags under my eyes-"
"Stop! You need to boost your self confidence a little bit. Cause why not? Of course he can like you! You're an amazing person! Plus, if he doesn't like you for who you are, then he's an asshole."

I chuckled at my best friend's talk.

"Oh well, whatever. It's fine even if he doesn't." - I said and just shrugged it.

Six months passed already and in the blink of an eye, the festival was here.
Since it was on Friday and Saturday, we didn't have to go to school those days.

I forced myself to eat that day, and I had butterflies in my stomach the whole time!
Few hours later, I found myself in the dressing room backstage.

We were separated in four parts. Four to five contestants in each part. I was in the third one. And my crush was right after me.

The stage was set in a way that looked like a starry night, there were lights on the curtain, representing the stars.
There was fake grass and smoke was coming out on every song.

There were ten chairs, set in the form of a couch. We were sitting on them and my crush was sitting next to a girl and talking to her. I was kind if jelaous, I guess? I didn't get to talk to him that much, and he seemed like he was enjoying the conversation.

Soon it was my turn. I didn't care that much about the song and all that I was thinking while singing was my crush looking at me from behind.
It felt like he was burning my back with his eyes. Or I'm just imagining things.

Every night, I would fantasize about me and him in a relationship.
I thought of so many different things..
How I would stay over at his house, we would watch movies, cook and all that.

I finished my song and sat down on my chair.
My crush stood up, and he started singing
All of Me by John Legend.
I really liked that song, the lyrics was so meaningful. I started fantasizing again.
And I just smiled to myself, knowing that he would be just a crush and nothing more.

That was until I noticed a girl coming from the audience giving him a bouquet of red roses.
Then, my favorite part of the song came.
He turned towards us and came closer and closer with every word he said:

Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
Cause I give you all, all of me
And you give me all, all of you~

With that finish he came to me and gave me the bouquet. I looked at him and I was so shocked and confused I didn't know what to do. I shyly smiled at him when he took my hand and made me stand up.

He turned to the crowd again and finished the song.
He pulled me towards him and held me by my waist.

He took out a ring and looked deeply in my eyes.
"Will you be my girlfriend?" - he asked and tears formed in my eyes.
"Yes." - I said and we hugged.

The crowd cheered for us and they gave a huge applause.
After that we both went back to our places and watched the rest of the kids sing till it was time for the awards.

Everyone from our team congratulated us and after that we went to a small party.
Me and Jimin exchanged numbers and talked for the rest of the night. Our teachers joked around, teasing us about what happened before.

But everything was amazing. I felt like the whole world stopped and it was only the two of us.
I was the happiest girl in the world.

"I love you so much."
"I love you too."

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