Your POV
Red Table Talk
"I'm so happy you could join us today," Jada said smiling at me.
"Thank you for having me. It's an honor," I replied.
"I have been dying to meet you," Willow said smiling at me.
"I'm the one who really got you here," Gammy whispered to me making me laugh.
"I know that your life has gone a complete turn around since the day your photo went viral. If you don't know, Y/N did a remake of her mother's photo for Halloween and when I tell you I was in here clutching my pearls at the uncanniness. It's really a copy and paste situation. Now that I'm hearing you talk, you done stole her voice too," Jada said and I laughed.
"I was not expecting that picture to go viral. I was still in college at the time. I was at work or coming from work when I saw that my mom had messaged me. She had told me to give her my number and I did. We talked and it's weird to see your face and hear your voice coming from someone else. We all know that I'm way cuter though. She invited me out to New York at first, but then changed it to L.A. because they had just moved. I brought my best friend, Jess, because I was not about to go there all by myself. I had already knew she was my mom because her name was on my birth certificate and my face kinda gives it away."
"What was it like to meet your siblings?" Jada asked.
"It was pure love from the beginning. It was Rumi, who saw me first. She looked at me and I kid you not she dropped her bottle looked, then she looked down and you could just see the stress of her trying to figure out what was going on. Blue was honestly the most excited."
"What were you initial feelings toward the situation?" Gammy asked.
"I was honestly just hurt. I wanted to be mad, but I couldn't because I don't blame her."
"Why?" Willow asked.
"She had a dream that she had wanted since she was practically a baby. She need to live that dream and make her mark even if I weren't included in it. She has touched the hearts of millions and she continues to do that everyday."
"How did you deal on with that hurt, that pain, for so long?"
"I was already dealing with so much other shit- my bad," I said and they all laughed at me.
"It's fine," Jada said waving me off.
"I was already dealing with so many other things. It was the last thing that I wanted to confront. It wasn't something that I wanted to deal with at all and if she would've never reached out, I wouldn't be here."
"You didn't want to meet her?" Willow asked.
"I didn't want to make her life anymore complicated than it was."
"Can I ask about your adoptive parents?" Jada asked and I nodded, "what were they like?"
"They were great parents. Loving, caring, ya know."
"Did you feel that you were adopted? And at what point was that?" Gammy asked.
"I didn't feel adopted until I was about six or seven. People always told me I looked like my mom every single day. When I realized that I actually did look like her, I noticed that I didn't look like my family and how I stuck out like a sore thumb. I had a lighter complexion with blue eyes. Not saying that that can't happen in any black family, but my face didn't look like their faces. It looked like my mom's. I then started to feel like I had to be perfect. I did everything to make them see me as the perfect child. They chose me and I felt like I need to give them a reason to keep me. I turned into a little robot. 'Yes, ma'am. No, ma'am. Yes, sir. No, sir.'"
