greenflame ~ The Chosen One

Lloyd

I woke up after a while, on the couch, next to my mom. Even though everything around was still very blurry, i knew exactly what happened before. I also knew that coming to school equals tons of judgmental looks and Kai most probably hating me.
- Lloyd. - Said mom.
- That's for sure my name.
- Son, what were you thinking? I bandaged your scars. This isn't the first time... are you suicidal?
I sat up, looked at the floor ashamed and chocked out:
- Did you ever... love someone like dad? Anyone?
- Are you trying to change the topic?
- No.
- Maybe a few, but it was before i met your father.
- Fine. Mom, i think i love someone but that person doesn't really... like me anymore. It hurts.
- Oh, baby... you're getting all into feeling too fast,getting attached so easily... You have a very big heart, Lloyd. Always remember about it. And this will make you a hero. Never forget about it.
- Thank you, mom. I love you.
- Me too, Lloydie. So... what's her name?
- Her?... Oh.. uh... you don't know her. - I lied on spot, not ready to come out yet.
- Back to the topic then... Lloyd, i'm afraid we need to get you a therapist. I should've done this years ago... i'm sorry.
- It's fine, mom. I don't want one.
- You need one.
- I'm not going to a goddamn therapist. End of story!
- Lloyd you...
- What?!
- ...Don't understand. - Said mom. I've never seen her so upset since dad's suicide.
- What do i not understand?!
- Your father... he was sick.
My head began to spin and breath started to get faster.
- W-wh-what? How come? Dad..was...
- He liked the vision of blood. - Whispered mom. - I wanted to take him to a good therapist or even a hospital... but your father started screaming at me. There was no way to change him. But you still can help it.
- Do you think I...
- Yes, it could be genetically confirmed that you're getting calmed or satisfied by the vision of blood, like Garmadon. Except, you only hurt yourself. In his case it was slightly different. Your dad, he...
- Killed people.
- He did it for us, son.
What?! Was she kidding? Was she actually calm about dad's crime?
- He was... a murderer, mom... - I said disturbed by her previous reaction.
- HE DID IT FOR US!
- MOM! HE KILLED PEOPLE! ARE YOU INSANE! - I yelled to release the pressure.
- HE RAISED YOU! ISN'T THAY ENOUGH?!
- Mom... - I stared at her with fear in my eyes. Could she possibly think that killing people... with families, dreams, duties... was fine? Just like that?...
- Lloyd, what you don't understand is that the only thing I regret is your father getting us in trouble and shooting himself, afraid of the consequences.
- You don't regret those... innocent people? - I cried, broken-hearted.
- I don't. This is how life goes.
Oh my god... i felt ill. I wanted to vomit. That.. just wasn't right. It was messed up. Could i become... like dad? Was my mom really okay with hurting others just to raise a family?
- Mom, this isn't okay. - I took my bandage off and took another look at my scars. - We can both use some treatment.. mom, i think..
Suddenly she stood up, grabbed something from the kitchen and walked out of our house.
I called her a few times, but there was no answer. I ran to uncle Wu's room to see him meditating.
- Hello, dear Lloyd. What's that? On your hand?
- I cut my wrists, uncle. I'm sorry. It was instant. But i need help. I want it, p-please help me.. - I said, breathing heavily and crying at the same time.
- Come here...
I sat on the floor and hugged him. Uncle rubbed my back. Finally, to break the silence, i said:
- Did you know that dad was... sick?
- Yes... - He replied sadly.
- Mom is afraid that i'm too... that's why i did this.
- You're an emotional and empathetic boy, Lloyd. It makes you a good person. You care about others and keep blaming yourself for things that weren't your fault. Who caused... this?
- It's Kai. I mean.. he didn't cause this but we got into a fight... i didn't expect him to yell at me... anyway, i do not blame him...
- Kai Smith? Do you mean my student?
- Yes, the elemental master of fire, Kai. We... I love him. That day at school... we met and... kissed... Now everyone knows.. i... i don't know what to do. - I've decided to tell Uncle Wu, thinking he'll understand. He's a very wise and good human being. I knew he wouldn't be able to hurt me.
- Kai... he's an impulsive one. Give him time and everything is going to be okay. Don't mind the kids at school, every sensation comes and goes. Also, i have decided that you should finally join our ninja trainings.
- Really? - I asked excited. That would be amazing! To spend more time with my friends and... Kai. Ugh...
- Yes. I think you're ready. I can see a huge potential. You're a smart boy, Lloyd. If you ever feel like you want to hurt yourself again, you'll be able to take your emotions out with spinjitzu.
- Spinjitzu?
- Yes, every ninja's fighting technique.
- That's amazing thank you, uncle!
- My pleasure, dear. - He smiled. - Do you know where your mother went? I heard the door shut.
- Uh... we.. argued. She thinks that it was okay for dad to... commit murder.
- Oh no...
- What?

Suddenly we both heard the entrance doors opening. Me and uncle walked slowly to see...
- Oh... my.. god. - He whispered.
- Mom... Why..
- SEE, LLOYD?! IS THAT- IS THA SO SCARY TO YOU?! THAT'S WHAT YOUR FATER DID! IT'S NOT THAT BAD. SEE?! COME HERE, THE HELL NOW!
My mother entered the house with a dead cat in her hands. It's happening... she has lost her mind.
- Misako... Please, put it down..
- SHUT YOUR ASS! THIS! THIS IS WHAT YOU DO! JUST ONE STAB!
I felt ill and ran to the bathroom to vomit. I couldn't stop feeling that way. Uncle Wu calmed the situation downstairs and called mental health services. An hour later they took mom...
I stayed in the bathroom, only hearing her scream...

After the whole thing was over i came back to see uncle Wu.
- What happened to mom? - I whispered in fear and shock.
- I think... your dad wasn't the best influence on her. She's clearly in a lot of pain... Lloyd, your mother isn't a bad person, she's just hurting and needs help too. For Garmadon is was too late. He couldn't handle it anymore. It was stronger. But you're mom, she will be fine. I saw it in her eyes.
- Did they take her to a...
- Mental institution, yes. It will be okay.
- What about us?
- We will too. Don't Worry, Lloyd. Don't worry.
- What if i'll become like them? - I said terrified.
- You will not. You are full of emotions and that's what makes you special. Now, go to bed. A future, full potential green ninja needs a lot of sleep, trainings and study.
- Thank you, uncle. Good night. - I said and faked a smile, knowing that i won't be able to fall asleep tonight.