graphic art

Existentialism

I'm going to die of a heart attack

I just don't know when

so every morning

I go to the gym

accelerating the tick

of a ticking bomb

isn't the best thing to do

but I don't know when my heart attack will be

It might be ten years from now

in the back of an old navy

shopping for clothes for my kids

or while I'm eating lunch tomorrow

a fall onto the floor of the vegan cafe

the server

having to mop up a mixture of spittle and blood

off the cold vegan laminate

I know

why vegan?

meat causes heart attacks

or it could

and besides

vegans might not go to Hell

Moral see Moral do

and when you live on the precipice of death

you stop caring

about whether or not there's any Big Guy upstairs

and start

acting accordingly

the risk is neon

slim-to-none

when it comes to seeing family and friends

where that Big Guy sits

unless they have heart-attacks too

every last interaction

if at least one person knows it's the last

tends to be good

I have my last interactions

for the rest of the day

not knowing if I'm about to spaz

then kick the bucket

like everyone ever before me

and everyone after me

It's all the same

I'm going to die of a heart attack

I just don't know when