Sana | Kim Wooseok

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Wooseok

Maybe she was right. I do like her. I do have feelings for her. And I feel bad because its like I was cheating because our relationship is still going yet I'm with someone else and falling to that someone else. But why do I feel like there's still something missing? Like a truth untold. Its in her eyes, I could see it but its hiding.

I'm not a good boyfriend. Good she broke up with me, now I know what is this feeling that I always have when I'm with her, Sana

But she, she probably think of me as a friend only. She doesn't look like one of those girls who likes me, she...she's different.

"Wooseok?" Oh please tell me I'm just dreaming that I'm hearing her voice calling me, dream.. "Leave me alone" this I just said that out loud? wait...
"Wooseok, hinahanap ka na nung iba" so she is here, what should I say? I said leave and then...argh "Pero bakit ikaw lang ang nandito?" tanong ko dahil eto ang bigla nalang pumasok sa isip ko na pwede kong sabihin, I'm not that harsh, right?

"Umalis ka nalang, I don't need you here"  I should just continue this. I know she's still there, standing behind me.

"Wooseok ano bang problema? Nandito naman ako eh pwede mong sabihin sakin kung anong problema mo kasi...kaibigan mo ako" see? kaibigan. I'm just a friend.

"Kasi ba second place–" she continued but I cut her off

"Wala akong pake kung second place lang ako, kahit anong makuha ko ok lang sakin" but being just your friend is not okay. "Kung ganon, ano palang ginagawa mo dito at nag iisa? Ayaw na may makasama? Hindi ka ganito, kaya sabihin mo sakin anong prob–" I cut her off again, sometimes she's really stubborn just to know what is going on. If I tell her that Somi and I broke up, what would she react?

"Hiwalay na kami ni Somi, masaya ka na? Nasabi ko na" I looked at her to see her reaction but nothing. I looked back on the window.
She walked towards me and sat in front of me. Why does she acts like she care for me so much? It makes me have hope...

"Bakit hindi mo sinabi? Wooseok free ako para sa'yo, nandito lang ako para sa'yo pero hindi kita matutulungan kung wala kang sasabihin at itatago mo lang sa sarili mo ang nararamdaman mo"

"Wooseok, tignan mo ako" I don't want to. "tignan mo ako" but half of me want to.

She cupped my cheeks and wiped my almost dried tears "Wooseok I don't want to see you like this, hurt and crying" She sighed, and I frowned "Because it makes me feel hurt too" a tear escaped her eye, I wanted to wipe it but I was distracted by what she just said. Is it because I'm her friend or she like me too? She removed her hands from cupping my cheeks.

"What...what do you mean?" She avoided my eyes.

"Sana please enlighten me about what you are saying, please" She sighed, again. She looked down not answering me.

"Sana answer me" please tell me you have the same feelings as me.
"Sana–" she cut off and said the words that I wanted to hear. I don't know if I should be happy but...she was crying.

"I love you" She looked at me with tears flowing down from her eyes. "For almost three years" What!?

"When I first saw you I thought I knew you, but actually no but since then I always wanted to see you, find you, like my day wouldn't be perfect if I didn't have a glance of you"

"Until it hit me, I like you and months after it grown into love" my lips are parted but no words came out even though I wanted to tell her, I love you too. "You were almost perfect for me that I adore you so much! but then one day I heard you have a girlfriend, it hurts but I always wished that sana isang araw mapansin mo ako, so I tried!" She licked her lips. Oh dear God know how I wanted to kiss those pink lips. (Ikaw din hikhok shhh lang kayo jan hahaha chour!)

"but no avail, you were too focused on her, on Somi, so I stopped trying because I said that one day you'll broke up, selfish me so much? I was just being desperate, because I love you so much, I don't know why but what I know is I love you" I feel that you're hurt, I'm sorry.

She stands up and almost leave when I held her hand. "Kaya ba lagi kang nasama sa akin kapag nag-aaya ako? Because–"

"Yes, because I'm glad that finally you notices me so I grabbed the chances to be with you"

"Does she know? Somi?" I asked, because I have this feeling that Somi knows about it. She yanked her hands to make me lose her hand "Ask her for your self" She left so easy and I was left there, thinking If I should follow her but then the rain started to pour. Oh no.
I ran outside when I saw Somi, crying.

"Somi" She was sitting and hugging her knees "Yes, I know. She loves you so much more than I do. And its okay if you follow her, because I'm the one who started this. Go to"

I didn't know what to say so I ran out of the building. Where is she?

"Sana?!"

Fuck!