In the middle vmk

FORTY FOUR

"Hyung?"

Hoseok turned around at the voice, pressing pause on the YouTube video he was watching so he could focus on the sad-looking Jimin standing next to the couch. "Yes?"

Jimin moved to sit next to Hoseok, swinging his legs on his lap so he could rest his head against the pillow. "I want to ask you something." Jimin looked quite troubled and it worried Hoseok. He leaned back against the couch and hummed, "You're not asking me to move out, right?"

Jimin scoffed and softly poked Hoseok's stomach with his foot, "Never."

"With two boyfriends it's bound to become crowded in here," Hoseok joked, "Anyway, what do you want to talk about?"

Jimin sighed and stared up at the ceiling as if he was at the therapist. "Taehyung, Jungkook, and I had a serious conversation yesterday. Taehyung asked if it was alright if Jungkook and he have sex in this relationship."

Hoseok nodded, "What did you say?" He had a feeling where this conversation was going and sadly, he realized he wouldn't be that big of a help.

"I said yes. I don't want them to get sexually frustrated just because I don't have the same urges as them."

"But?" Hoseok added.

Jimin frowned, "But?"

"Well, you came to me to talk about something, probably because you need advice. What's the but?" Hoseok asked, pulling at Jimin's sock that had a sushi pattern.

"I'm not sure if I'm really so fine with them possibly being intimate without me. What if I feel left out?"

The older boy tilted his head, his eyes still fixated on the sushi pattern, "Do you feel left out right now?" Jimin squirmed, Hoseok's fingers tickling his feet.

"No, but they haven't had sex yet", he explained, "I think Jungkook won't be ready for a while either so".

Hoseok hummed, "So you're worried about what you'll be feeling in the future."

"Yes, what if I suddenly feel not okay with it? And what if they'll get angry with me?" Jimin knew this would be hard, starting a relationship with two boys when his first relationship ended because he didn't want to have sex with her. He knew that on one side it would be easier with the three of them because now the two of them could have sex without involving him, but on the other hand, he wanted to be involved with everything.

"That's valid", Hoseok bit his lip, "How do you feel about them? I know you told me you're asexual, but it's can be a fluid sexuality. Being asexual doesn't mean you don't want sex forever."

"I know", Jimin huffed, "And I did have sex one time with this guy at a club when I was younger. I enjoyed it back then but afterward I never felt this sexual pull towards anyone. I'm not sure if I'd want to have sex with them."

"You don't have to figure it out right now. Your relationship is still new. I'd say, tell them what's on your mind and let them get used to the idea", Hoseok advised, "I don't think anyone can figure out what you want if you don't know it either. It takes time."

"Yeah", Jimin sighed, "Thanks hyung, I needed this talk."

"No problem", Hoseok waved the thanks away and focused on the television. "When does Taehyung come back?"

"I think in about half an hour. Why?"

"You wanna watch something?", Hosoek asked him, "Preferable something Taehyung absolutely detests because that guy sure can whine whenever we watch anything he hates."

Jimin laughed, "Sure, that's like half of what's on Netflix."

Taehyung was humming a song as he walked back home, a full bag of groceries in his right hand and a water bottle in his left. He had gone to the store to stock up on food so he could make his two boyfriends something nice that evening. Jungkook was at the gym and Jimin was probably already home from his shift in the supermarket not too far from where he was.