I thought to myself,
"Maybe try sitting with people I haven't sat with before. Maybe Danielle's group. Her group is pretty nice and interesting."
And I ended up sitting with Danielle's group for a bit. While I was sitting with Danielle's group, I received some happy news. Rissa and Xavier finally didn't like each other anymore! I was so happy! Maybe, now, I would have a chance with Xavier. Maybe, if I wished hard enough on a star.
Soon afterwards, though, I realised I didn't quite fit in with everyone in Danielle's group. I don't mean that in a mean way, but rather, they're way too nice for me and my personality just isn't like theirs. So I decided to move groups again and sit with Anna's group.
Anna was always nice to me and her group was always interesting. The only downside, however, was that there was that Anna's group always had a lot of tea. Drama, I mean. There were a lot of boy-drama and people stealing other people's boyfriends. It also involved a lot of people spreading mean and bad rumours and talks about other people and I didn't like that.
So, I joined another group. Emma's group. Her group was more my style, crazier, more funny gossips and stories, and just basically more....me. There I was, trying harder and harder to fit in with this new group when I realised that I didn't have to try, these people loved me for who I am.
I had been bonding enough with Emma herself, which is why sometimes, I went walking around the school, talking to Emma, one-on-one. I realised that I wasn't the only with these depression thoughts and a liking for depressing songs. This was basically every other teenager in the whole, wide world.
"Ellie? I found out who Xavier likes",
Rissa said to me suddenly, one time when I was walking around with Emma.
"Who? You again?"
I asked.
"Of course not! It's actually Polly!,
exclaimed Rissa.
"OH MY GOD? REALLY? AND DOES SHE LIKE HIM BACK?"
I asked Rissa.
"Yeah, they like each other",
said Rissa.
Once again, I was heartbroken because he went for another one of my good friends instead of me.
Why!
Why does he keep doing this to me....
