Randomness of the Encrier

Today sucked

I haven't really told Wattpad or Paigeeworld much about my personal life. But I had some sad stuff happened to me today. I just need to vent it somehow. If you don't want to read something sad, that's okay. don't read it. I'm fine with that. This is for venting purposes only.
I'm moving this Sunday. Moving really far, in fact. I've known about this for a few weeks, but I wasn't too impossibly unhappy. It was bittersweet. I'm moving to an exciting place which I shall not name for identity safety purposes. But it's tropical.
Today I started to say my goodbyes at school. And it was then the reality of it all set in. It didn't help that one of my friends hadn't heard I was moving... I got out of school... not quite happy.
Then I hung out with my best friend for the last time. I'd grown up with this guy, we knew each other so well and I couldn't believe I was leaving him. (If anyone read my story "coyote attack", the character Cole is loosely based off of him) But I had one comfort: I had something to give him. A four-leafed clover that I had found and laminated. This thing meant a lot to me, but it would mean even more to me in the possession of my best friend.
But then I went to get it. I went to where I put it. It wasn't there. It was gone. My farewell gift was gone. I kind of broke down. It seems like something silly but this clover was a whole lot more to me than just a mutated plant. This was my way to make goodbye not hurt as bad. and it was gone. I was an emotional wreck the rest of the day and I still am feeling really sad. I cried. I'm a guy, and on top of that I usually express my negative emotions in other ways. I only cry when I'm REALLY sad. And I cried. I wish I didn't have to say goodbye...
Once again, this was for venting purposes, but if you read through this, thank you. It means a lot to me. This is a hard time in my life I'm struggling to get through.