A Thousand Lies

Chapter 24

Chapter name: ringing ears

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Temperance

I lay on my back, staring at the ceiling. I woke up hours ago but haven't had the strength to move. Alec explained to me that when the police find me I'm going to have to go back.

Of course, I won't have to go back to my own home, I would be leaving for my Aunt and Uncles.

That is exactly the thing that causes me to be nervous. I haven't seen their family in years. The only place I know is my own home and then Alec's home. Going to this new place fills me with uncertainty. But alas, there's only a matter of time before they house me somewhere else.

I have all of my friends here. Alec's people are my friends, and I would be leaving them. Not only them but Nicole and Ryan as well. I've been distant from them since I met Alec but that doesn't mean that I want to completely leave their side.

There's this feeling inside of me that causes me to be sick with anxiety. I can't help but feel like something bad is going to happen. Something bad always happens. This time, It's causing my stomach to ache with uncertainty.

Something is going to happen and it's bigger than me. I don't think I can stop it even if I tried.

I hear a soft knock at the door. I stay silent and close my eyes.

When sad, play dead.

"Temperance, are you ok?" Ella asks. Ella and I have been the only ones home. Alec had to leave an hour ago or so with the guys for an emergency they didn't tell me about.

When I don't respond, Ella opens the door and peeks her head in.

"Do you need anything?" She looks at me with a sympathetic look tugging at her face.

I want to cry. I feel so sick that I could throw up.

Maybe my bad feeling is about leaving. But it seems worse than that, almost like I'm mourning something.

"I-I'm j-just tired Ella..." I've gone back to stuttering. The old habit annoys me once again.

"Do you need any water?" She asks me.

I shake my head no, watching her give me a smile before leaving the room.

I stand up and walk along the cold wood floor into the bathroom.

I peel my clothes off me. I still avoid looking at my disgusting naked body. I turn on the bathwater and get in, letting the hot water fill up around me.

I lay my head back and close my eyes as the water slowly inches up my body.

I splash some water on my face to get the tears out of my eyes

My throat has a lump in it, and my eyes sting.

I want to go to the warehouse.

I want to see Emaline.

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