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CHAPTER 6

I forced myself to breathe.

In

Out

In

Out

"The fuck you doing Tilly?" Jake questioned as he looked down at me.

I plastered on the best smile I could fake.

"Nothing. I just need to go to the toilet." I snatched my hand out of his and stumbled across the VIP area as quickly as my legs would take me. 

This was who Jake was meeting? Luke? My Luke? Well he wasn't my Luke anymore. He made sure of that.

"Tilly!" I heard bellowed across the club. Clearly Jake didn't like me just walking off. I ignored it and kept walking. Desperate to be away from the situation.

I made it into the bathroom and flew into one of the stalls. I sunk down onto my heels. I could not face Luke. Not like this. Not when I'd already done more than a few lines. I knew by now my eyes would be slightly blood shot.

I couldn't stay in the toilet cubicle all night. I was going to have to face him at some point. Did Jake know we knew each other?

I stepped out looking to see if Jake had followed me.

"Tilly?" a voice that I hadn't heard in a long time came from behind me.

I wasn't sure I could turn around. I sucked in a breath and turned to see a face I knew as well as my own. Luke was beautiful. He always had been. There wasn't a time when he didn't have girls throwing themselves at him. He dated on and off but not many of them like me, so he dumped them. 

He would always put me first and had walked out of countless dates because I'd asked him for help with something. People always said we should have been a couple but we both laughed it off. It did hurt that he never saw me like that but our friendship was clearly too important to him. 

Luke had declared that he would be the one to take my virginity and true to his word on my 17th birthday he did just that. We had kissed more than once before that but it was always messing around. When he took my virginity I had been so excited. I thought he finally saw me as something more than his best friend. He didn't. We had slept together quite a few times after that but that was all it ever was. 

"I don't want some unexperienced horny teenager ruining your first time Till" he'd said to me. Those weren't the words I wanted to hear from him, I wanted him to tell me that he wanted to be the one to do it because he loved me. I was happy being just his best friend but I couldn't lie that every time I saw him with a different girl it made me insanely jealous. It's probably why I always interrupted his dates and made it uncomfortable for his girlfriends. What could I say, I was a selfish person who wanted him all to myself. 

"Don't fucking walk away from me when I'm talking to you!" Jake shouted as he approached us. He wrapped his arm around my neck and pulled me into his side.

Luke's eyes blazed at Jake's action.

"Luke meet Tilly. Tilly meet Luke" Jake said and he motioned his hand between us.

"Let's move away from the toilets. Doesn't send out a great message" Jake declared as he winked at me. This was his way, one minute he was barking at me the next he was playful. I stood staring at Luke, I was going to have to speak soon or Jake would get suspicious.

"Yeah, of course. Sorry. Don't know what came over me. I just needed a minute." Jake grabbed my hand again and led us back to the VIP area.

"Probably all that shit you put up your nose" Jake laughed.

I chanced a peek back at Luke who was following closely behind us. He was digging his nails into his palms. Clearly he wasn't happy about the development in my life. People moved out of our way as we walked across the club, then again, both of them were over 6 foot and carried themselves in a way that said get the fuck out of my way. 

We reached the VIP section. "You let your bitch sample the products?" Luke barked at Jake. 

What

The

Fuck

I looked over at him and his face with stone cold furious. It was not a face I had ever seen on Luke, he was always so carefree and he had a fantastic sense of humour. I couldn't count the amount of times he made me laugh so hard I thought I night pee myself. He had never been angry with me. Not even when he'd had to leave his date on valentines night with a girl who he had been serious about because I'd got shit faced at a bar and needed picking up. He simply picked me up, looked after me when I chucked my guts up and then took me out for breakfast the next morning without even batting an eyelid. 

That was not the person who was stood in front of me. Was Luke here because he was involved in Jake's business? Was this why he had disappeared, had he got caught up in something he shouldn't have? Surely I would have noticed. Who was this person! 

"Absolutely!" Jake's eyebrows rose. He was daring Luke to respond. He didn't but his mouth set into a hard frown. We reached our seats and Jake poured me a drink and pulled out his phone. He gave my thigh a quick squeeze  "Gotta make a call babe. Don't start the party without me." He winked at me as he moved away from our table.

My body hummed with the closeness to Luke. I could feel his eyes on me. I was looking anywhere but at Luke. I had so many questions but wasn't sure I could form a coherent sentence. 

"Seems you and I have a lot to catch up on Tilly" Luke uttered into my ear. His breath was minty fresh and he obviously still wore the same after shave as he smelt just like he had before he left. It was all too much, whilst he was gone I ignored how much I had missed him but having him here now without reaching distance was my undoing. I turned to face him and felt the tears rise. I was not a crier. My mum had once told me that I was a pretty emotionless child. Apparently this had followed me into adulthood. However staring into the eyes of the man I had once loved the emotion overwhelmed me.

"You left me" was all I could say.

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Eek! I wonder what happened to make Luke leave so suddenly. Comment what you think might have happened and please remember to vote if you have enjoyed what you have read so far. It would mean a lot.