Peter Parker➶➶ Hopeless

Part 7 i need you

A/N:this chapter is angst filled just saying😔✌🏻

(Y/N) POV:

*Friday*

Today is my first day training with the avengers. And honestly I'm nervous. I'm most likely going to get beat up but oh well I guess its what I'm going to have to do though if I want to be able to defend myself. Especially from my mom.

"Hello (y/n)" Natasha said as I walked into the training room. For the first hour I was going to be with her so this will be exciting.

"Ok so what we are going to do first is just some basic hand to hand combat to see what your made of." She said with no emotion.

Before I could even respond she lunges at me and cradles me on the floor. I look up at her not only shocked but in pain because I think I sprained something.

I get up with some help and get in fighting position. I'm pretty sure all the avengers heard me scream because they were all in the room watching. Including peter.

I think I had a little adrenaline rush because this time when she lunged I was ready. I grabbed her fist right before she hit my face. She was a little shocked but being the trained assasin she is, she flipped me over. Now that hurt. I land flat on my back and I swear I broke a rib or something. I scream in pain and peter runs over.

"Are you ok." He says concerned

" ya I'm fine I just need to try again."

I stand up and think about my mom, how she hurt me, not just fiscally, but emotionally. She drained my hope, my will to live. She made me believe I was a killer. But, I am, right? I killed my dad. I killed my moms happiness. I killed my own chances at a happy life by just being alive.

So this time when nat lunges at me I don't picture her, I don't picture my mom, I don't picture bullies from school or anyone who has ever caused me pain. I picture the one who hurt me most of all.

Me.

Next thing I know Natasha is on the ground covered in blood as I scream curse words at her. Most of the avengers are trying to tear me off her but what they don't realize is I'm the most determined at anything I have ever been.

I was trying to kill what I thought was the thing that hurt me the most. I was trying to kill myself.

I guess they finally pulled me off because nat was in a chair with all the blood washed off of her and a little in shock starring at me. While I'm tied up in another chair on the other side of the room tiers streaming down my face and horrible thoughts streaming through my head.

"What the hell was that?" Tony asked while the rest of the avengers watch closely.

"I pictured her as the person who hurt me most."

" your mom." Peter says with sad eyes.

"No. Me. I killed everyone and any thing that could have ever made me happy. I ruined lives. I even killed my dad. I ruined my life in the process. I should just end it, shouldn't I?Wouldn't that solve many problems. My mom would be happy. My dad, my dad would be avenged." I say with tiers on my cheeks.

They all stare at me with wide eyes. Like I had just murdered a box of puppies. Maybe it was because while I was talking, I smiled. I look over to see peter shaking with tiers all down his face. He was hyperventilating or something I don't know but that got me fueled up again.

"Why do you care. Why do you look at me with sad eyes when all I say is the truth. All I'm saying is that maybe without me the world would be a bit happier." I say looking at him in the eyes.

"SHUT UP!" Peter screams at me. "You can't say all these horrible things about yourself when the people who care about you will have to deal with the after math."

" YOU DON'T GET IT NO ONE CARES!"

"QUITE SAYING THAT, I CARE ABOUT YOU!" He yelled even louder now balling his eyes out.

Everyone in the room just stares blankly at this 16 year old boy crying into the arm of a girl who has a death wish.

" mr. stark can you untie me please, I promise I won't do anything." I say. Tony then nods and unties me from the chair. Get down to the floor where peter is by the chair and I hug him. He raps his arms around me and cries. When he settles down he whispers in my ear " I need you."

We stand up still hugging then let go. "ok" I say then realize how awkward this is because all the avengers are there staring.

Even Sam and Bucky are in here snickering in the corner because it's so sad it's cringey.

" I think it's time for you kids to go home." Tony says.

And he was right so we went home. In the back seat of happy's car we sat hand in hand. And up the stairs to the apartment. We knock on the door and aunt may swings the door open with a happy face until it drops when she sees are tear stained cheeks and red swollen eyes.

She hugs us both then lets us in. We sit down on the couch and turn on a movie only me and peter to fall asleep on each others shoulders.