See You Again - A Choni Story

Chapter 11

Toni's POV

All I could hear was my thoughts, all of them about Cheryl. All I could see was her note. I stared at words, struggling to read it. Just read it, you idiot. She cared about you enough to write this so you should care enough to read it. But why can't I? I'm not letting myself read it. But why? Maybe it's becuase I kind of feel as though it will feel real, as if it's actually happening, once I've read it. If I read her words I can't pretend like it's not happening. I don't know. I'm being stupid. All I know is that the girl I have these crazy feelings for is gone. You should've just kissed her you idiot.

I sat down on a step outside of the building. You can do this, Toni...

Cheryl's POV

I got in the car with Mark and Freya, stealing a final look at Toni before I closed the door. I had this weird feeling in my stomach. Is this regret? Is that what I'm feeling? Am I just really sad? What is going on?

"Are you ready to leave then, sweetie? Have you forgotten anything?" I heard Freya say. At least, that's what I thought she said. I was too busy thinking about Toni and how much I hated leaving her. I may never see her again and I didn't even take the chance to tell her that I liked her. I'm starting to feel like the idea of not telling her before was a huge mistake. I didn't even get to kiss her. I'm so stupid. Should I have told her? Maybe. Would it be a bad idea to tell her? Quite possibly. But I'd rather take the leap now, than wait in the hopes that I can do it in the future. If I never see her again I may never get the chance to tell her or show her how I truly feel. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I never told her. I just hope it doesn't make her hate me. This is it. My last chance and I think I've suddenly decided to take it. But am I too late? Is she still waiting? Why does my mind have to do this to me? Uuuhhhhhh.

I resisted the urge for as long as I could, but I finally gave in. I couldn't stop myself anymore. I needed to see Toni one more time.

"Cheryl? Is everything okay?"  Mark said as I snapped back into reality.

"Yeah. Fine."

"Did you hear what I said?" Freya asked.

"Maybe...possibly...I'm not sure I'm sorry...I was just daydreaming." I stated and so Freya repeated the question that I thought she had said earlier 'Have you forgotten anything?' I thought about it and realised that our car hadn't actually moved. Maybe my stupid idea was still possible.

"Well..."

Toni's POV

I was about a few lines into Cheryl's little letter and I could already feel the tears forming. I knew this feeling was going to suck, but I also knew it would stick with me until I Cheryl shows up in my life again. I wish I could have her comfort in this moment, but she had already left. A single tear drifted down from my eye and landed on the paper.

"TT..." I heard and I looked up as fast as I could. I saw Cheryl standing there and I wiped my eyes. Her face looked softer than normal and her eyes less bright. It was then that I realised her car hadn't actually moved, but I didn't notice because I was so stuck in my thoughts.

"I thought you had already gone." I exclaimed, still shocked she was still standing there. I got up and walked closer to her.

"Nah...we've been sitting in the car for like two minutes. Freya and Mark were trying to get my attention, but I was too busy thinking."

"About what?"

"You." I felt my heart pound harder and faster at her words. What is she going to stay? "They were asking me if I had forgotten anything."

"Have you?" I answered and she nodded. "What?" I responded. For the first time ever, it seemed as though Cheryl was lost for words and had no idea what to say.

"This." She muttered and before I knew it her lips connected with mine. I felt extremely confused at what was happening and why it was happening, but I wasn't complaining. If this were to be my final memory of her, I was glad it was going to be a good one. After a few seconds, she pulled away from me. I was stunned.

"Wow..." I whispered quietly so only I could hear. I had always wondered what a first kiss would feel like, and now I knew. We stared at each other for a moment, with our hands locked together tighter than ever before. Cheryl then looked at the car and I knew she had to go, but I didn't want the moment to end.

"I'm sorry." She mumbled. Her hand slipped from mine as she walked away. This time I watched the car drive away, just so I knew she was really gone. I wanted to wait for a minute, to see if she would come back again, but instead a nun came back to take me back inside.

Authors note:
I wasn't going to do this but then I saw some of you wanted it to happen and so I decided to write it into the story. I feel like I fooled all of you last chapter by making you think Cheryl left, but then this happened. I quite like how this turned out but let me all know what you think about it below. I really like reading your thoughts about it. Thanks for the support again. Let me know if there's anything I could do to improve it and my writing. I would appreciate any constructive criticism.

Also the 'wow' after the kiss kinda makes me think of Cazzie, which makes me mad because it hasn't been renewed yet but whatever.