Love of the Dawn

Chapter 2

Nakakasawa

Sana nabubura nalang ang alaala. It hurts everytime I remember it. I wanted to move on. Sana nakinig nalang ako kay mommy at daddy noon. Sana tinanggap ko ang mga advise sa akin ni ate Emily.

At the age of 19, I fell in love. Pero ngayon parang nagkamali ako, di ata love ang nangyare sa akin. Magulo.
Si Michael ay teacher ko sa Earth Science nung first year college.

He is really handsome,tall and smart. Kaya halos lahat ng estudayante sa school at maging mga teachers doon may gusto sa kanya. While me? I am a bitch. Siya ang nagpatino sa akin.  pero bago yon, syempre nahirapan din siya. I disobeyed him. Di ko siya sinunod as my teacher. Naiinis ako sa kanya. Naiinis ako kapag may kasama siyang iba, yon pala may gusto na ako sa kanya.

Alam ni mom at dad na kami. Di rin nila ako mapigilan kasi lalo ako nagrerebelde. Kaya naman hinayaan nalang nila ako. They supported me from what I want to all my whims. Not until one day, I made my biggest mistake.

"Where are you going!?" I asked him . It's almost two weeks since the last time I saw him. Hindi ko alam kung busy ba siya o talagang iniiwasan niya ako. I cant contact him. Kaya ngayong nakita ko siya dito sa canteen agad ko siyang nilapitan.

"Velle, pwede ba huwag dito?" he lowered his voice .

" Then, where?"

Tumalikod siya at agad kong sinundan. Some students were looking at us now. Maybe, scooping for a new story huh. I raised my brow to them, then they all looked away. They know me. I am really a bitch.  Im  good only in front of my man.

Nakarating kami sa isang abandunadong classroom. Malayo ito sa mga claasrooms na ginagamit at nasa bandang likod ng campus. Wala ring mga estudyante dito dahil nga abandoned na ang rooms na ito.

He went inside. I followed him. Puro sira ang mga gamit. At kung di ko siya kasama talagang nakakatakot ang lugar na ito.

I looked at him.

"So, anong nangyare sa iyo? Bakit di ka nagpaparamdam? May bago na ba?" diretsang tanong ko sa kanya. Agad nag-iba ang expression niya. Nagulat sa mga pinagsasbe ko.

"Sinabe ko diba sayong may seminar akong pinuntahan."

"Uhuh? Ho about the other week? What did you do?"

Shit. I sounded like a clingy girlfriend. And he doesn't like it. He wants a mature relationship.

"And I'm not clingy" pahabol ko.

His brows up. Ang kaninang tapang ay napalitan na ng hiya.
A smile is now forming on his lips. Bullshit! Nakakatawa ba yon? .Velle bakit ba kasi sinabe mo pa yon!
He is now smiling. Magagalit dapat ako eh! Bakit nadadala ako sa ngiti niya.

"Stop smiling!" I shouted to him.

He chuckled.

"Michael!"

He raise his hands like surrendering.

"Okay baby, I'll stop now." aniya sabay mabilis na hakbang papunta sa akin.

He kissed me.

"Sorry for being too busy" he said between our kisses. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang iba pa niyang sinabe dahil sa halik niya. I like it .

"Babawi ako" aniya sabay buhat sa akin. He make me sit on his lap while his sitting. Nakaharap ako sa kanya. I felt like I'm blushing again because of this position.

"Oh! I'm riding you. Is that okay?" i said with a charm. Halata sa kanya ang pagpipigil.

"Very vey okay" aniya.Then he kissed me again. I kissed him back. I felt his tongue inside mine playing. Then, while kissing torredly his hand is now on my thigh touching it. While the other one is on my breast.After that, he slid his hand inside my dress then I felt his hand on my nipples.

"You really love playing it huh?" i asked him. He just smiled.

His kisses were very hungry. It's like he hadn't kiss me before. So, ganito pala siya kapag nakakamiss! So , sa susunod magpapamiss talaga ako ng sobra!

We enjoyed that day. We cuddle in that abandoned place pero di naman kami umabot don sa part na matindi. He knows I'm not ready for that. Kissing is fine to him. That's why, I'm still a virgin.

Ang mga magang mata ay lalo pang namaga habang pinapanood sa akin ni mom at ate ang video. Si dad halos di makatingin at sa sobrang galit at lumabas ng bahay.

Hindi namin alam ni Mike na nakunan pala ang pangyayare na yon. It's our video kissing together. At itoy pinagpyestahan sa buong campus.

" This is what you get Velle! Sinabe ko naman sayo diba! Hiwalayan mo muna yang si Mike! Tignan mo ang nangyare! " sigaw ni mommy sa akin.

" Almira, stop it! The scandal spreads like a wildfire in this province. We have to think of a solution and stop getting angry to Velle because of what she did. We all know she's just 19. Still a teenager and young!" sagot ni Tita Fatima. Thanks to her, nababawasan ang takot ko kay mommy .

"Young!? ...My goodness Fatima! Velle is not young anymore!Later, she will be turning 20 ,she should think in a mature way. At bakit ba naman kasi nakikipaghalikan ka sa boyfriend mo sa loob ng campus niyo! Alam mo namang sa iyo lahat ang mata ng mga tao doon diba;! Lahat ng kilos mo binabantayan nila dahil anak kita, you are a daughter of a  politician and a businessman ! At idagdag mo pa ang pagpatol mo sa teacher mo! My goodness! This is killing me! Malapit na ang election at ito pa ang nangyayari" asik ni mommy sabay inom ng tubig. Stress na siya sa trabahao lalo pa siyang na stress sa ginawa ko.

" Almira, calm down. This won't help Velle. Can't you see , she's in pain also. Baka mamaya madepressed ang bata sa ginagawa niyo. Let's just help her okay?" Tita Sally, oldest sister nila mommy. Panganay siya ,pangalawa si tita Fatima at bunso si mommy.

"Yes, ate is right Mira. Maybe, it would be better if we let Velle go for a vacation. Palamigin lang muna natin tong issue kasi nakakapaso na ang nangyayare. Pwedeng doon muna siya  sa Namiraya Province habang inaalam kong sino ang nagpakalat nito. Anyway, naipabura narin naman lahat ng videos na kumalat sa internet, thanks to our family's connection naging madali ang lahat."

Biglang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko sa sinabe ni Tita Fatima. Nabura na lahat ng nasa internet kahit papaano ung mga tao dito nalang ang proproblemahin namin.

" I think, tita Fatima is right mom. It would be better if we let Velle out of the scene for the meantime. Let her rest at our province , in that way she can meditate for what she did. Malay mo magbago na siya, rigth velle?"  and now, here is my sister again for her evil plans. Gusto niyang nasa provinve ako so that she'll do everything here nang walang inaalalang kapatid. Napakahirap doon sa lugar na iyon, the air, the place , the people I dont like them .

"I don't like that place. You can throw me anywhere but never only on that place" I fired back at them. They all look at me. They look at me as if I'm a big and difficult problem they can't solve.

" Velle! At this time, you should listen to us. We're older that you ,we've been to many hard experiences and we know what to do. So , better follow our orders,okay?" Si Tita Sally ulit ang nagsalita but I just gave her a glance.

"Still, I don't want that place."

" Velle!! Do you hear yourself!??.. It's Tita you are talking to! You are really a bad brat! You never listen to us, now look what happen to you? You are one of those Scandalous girls !?" galit na sigaw ni ate, mommy is just glaring at us tila pinag-iisipang mabuti ang mga sasabihin.

" At anong gagawin ko doon! Tutunganga maghapon. My goodness ate! I never dreamed to live in a place like that. That place is disgusting! " sagot ko sa kanya. Napasinghap silang lahat sa sinagot ko .  I don't want to offend them dahil doon sila lumaki, I've been there and I'm just telling the truth.

"Disgusting!? Really? What you did is more disgusting!" sigaw ni ate then she walked out. Para akong nabuhusan ng tubig sa sinabe niya. It's been two week since the video spread.   They comforted me beacuse the situation is really stressing me out. At ngayon maririnig ko yon sa bebeg mismo nila.

Bumuhos ang luha ko na para bang di ito nauubos. Bumalik ulit lahat. Isa akong eskandalosang babae! ..Wala akong mabuting naidulot sa kanila. Puro nalang sakit ng ulo. Nakakasawa na.