Finding You // s.m.

ten

Abuse warning! If you are sensitive to abuse please skip the last few pages!

Will
Always for you

I read the text and sat farther in the tub. I let the water heat my skin and the alcohol cooled it after every sip. I felt more empty than ever. I lost everyone, Shawn, Chris, Sav, Madison, Jack. I had Peter and Amelia, that's it.

I wiped my tears and got out of the tub, feeling the weight of the water on my chest the most. I wrapped myself in a towel and sat on the toilet. I let my breathing even and emptied the tub.

Millie
Perfect, what time?

I responded to Will's text and emptied the last few drops of alcohol into my mouth.

Will
8 work?

Millie
Fine by me

I started the shower and washed everything, shaved, and got out. I moisturized and brushed my hair. I crawled back into bed after putting on shorts and a tee shirt. I scrolled through Twitter and Instagram. I started unfollowing some accounts, ship accounts, fan accounts, Shawn, Madison, Jack. I got my followers down pretty low on both and people started noticing.

Shawn
Unfollowed? On
everything? Ouch
Mills

I rolled my eyes at the message and turned on Netflix, watching it for a few hours until I had to get ready to go out with Will.

I had gotten ready and Will picked me up, taking us to some club. We got in quickly and he took us to some back room. There were guys everywhere and only a few girls, most of them with barely a sliver of clothing covering their body. Will said hi to people as we walked in and we stopped at some guy.

He introduced me and the guy handed me a pill. I took a drink from the table and swallowed the pill. I went to sit on a stool towards the side and Will came with.

"You okay?" He asked, leaning down to me ear.

I forced a smile and nodded. He stood between my legs and rested his arm on the counter next to me. He smiled and winked before leaving to do something. I sat on the stool and went on my phone. I had mostly Twitter and Instagram notifications, ignoring them.

Will came back with two drinks and I drank as much as I could before shivering. Will leaned down to my ear again.

"You look so sexy tonight, might have to take you back to mine." He pulled away winking.

His words did nothing to me, they went in one ear and out the other. I winked and playfully smiled. One of his friends came over and he turned, I dropped my smile. I took another drink from the cup and set it down. Will turned back to me and set his down.

"Can I just take you home now?" He said in my ear.

I nodded and he took my hand. I wasn't excited in the slightest. I was so emotionless to everything around me. Will high fived some guys on the way out and we went to his car. Multiple cameras flashed as we walked by, but I didn't care.

We ended up back at his house and the familiar feeling of him sending Shawn that picture crept back in. I shrugged it off and we went up to his room.