The sunlight sneaked through his window to his room, it was then that he knew that he had spent another sleepless night but not because of nightmares not because of dark memories but because of her.
Hyuga Hinata
He had replied that scene over and over and over,
Sasuke licked his lips remembering the taste of hers
He felt his soul left his body as they kissed, he felt that he was.. alive. He couldn't stop his smile from showing Sasuke closed his eyes replaying for one more time she was drunk but the way she leaned on his lap to get closer to his face made his heart warm
Her features were so close, her soft skin, red lips, red cheeks ,long lashes he remembered the sound of her breathing her small hands her jawline these small details bloomed inside his chest, she gave him a lot of feelings inside of him, it felt like filling fresh air inside his lungs, warmth that beats the coldness of the winter, She made him a human again, she gave him back what was taken from him years ago.
So many long years, too long.
But she came after, when he thought his life was meaningless, when he gave up in searching for reasons to live for and he just waited for the moment to leave she gave him a reason to go back to his life.
The smile could not disappear and sasuke didn't want to got up from his bed, he wanted to stay and replied that moment again and again, but someone knocked on his door, he was 100% that it wouldn't be the hyuga after all she might escape from him for a while but they will meet this village wasn't so big after all, Sasuke walked to the door and opened it
Then there was the last person before the hyuga he thought would come and he wasn't pleased at all
"Nara" he greeted him as always but Shikamaru didn't greet him back "the hokage need you at his office" Sasuke nodded his head and before he slammed the door at Shikamaru, Shikamaru left
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Sakura walked fast in the streets of the village she didn't find ino, she looked for her in the flower shop or any place she could be in so there was one answer (Shikamaru) Sakura found Shikamaru about to walk inside the hokage's building.
So she called for him loudly, Shikamaru looked behind him with raised brow who would shout like that in morning? Oh sakura? His confusion disappeared she ran to him and without greeting she asked "have you seen ino?!" He had but why was she asking? She wore her worst frown "why?" She looked at her shoe as she took a deep breath "that idiot was supposed to be at the hospital" Shikamaru walked her to the hospital this morning where was she? "It's her shift and she didn't came" what happened? "Have you checked the flower shop or the restaurant?" Sakura nodded "so you haven't seen her either?" Shikamaru answered worried already "We both walked to the hospital this morning" sakura sighed "ok thanks shika" that nickname sounded weird when it came from someone who wasn't Ino
Ino was the only one allowed to call him that
Even though he acted that he was annoyed but he didn't mind it. Shikamaru looked at the building where he worked then back to where sakura was moments ago (work can wait) and so he turned looking for her
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Sasuke had forgotten that the hokage now was his best friend Naruto Uzumaki. He remembered that when he stepped inside the office.
Naruto's was glaring at the papers in front of him and That felt uneasy, did he find out? About what happened the night before. Sasuke had the upper hand in this, he even know what to say and what to do but still he felt like that despite everything Sasuke didn't want to lose his best friend.
He stepped inside breathing deeply then walked "oi"
Naruto looked up and the glare he had disappeared replaced with his usual huge grin Naruto stood up walking to him with his open which Sasuke refused as always Naruto leaned on his table as he stared at Sasuke with a smile teasing the uchiha and it worked
Sasuke was about to punch him and burn him with his susano "I have big news to you" Sasuke waited patiently "you're going to be living in somewhere else and have a nice place" Sasuke didn't like living there it was like he was living with a ghosts but..
Someone was living there too, he didn't want to leave that place that why he answered fast "No" and the confusion on Naruto's face shown "eh?" Sasuke returned his usual "It took a while to get used to that place I don't want to be awake at nights" even though someone always made him awake all night
"Ok but there's another one" what was it now? He knew Naruto cared so much about him but he didn't need it. It either made him feel guilty or mad but Sasuke listened to what he wanted to say "Sasuke Uchiha you're the captain of the anbu" Sasuke was shocked the words went slowly to his head but he didn't show it he was wearing his usual expression despite everything that was going inside
So he turned this much of pressure inside his chest was stronger than him and he was tired of all these things, all these feelings for his best friend, for the village, his sensei and for her.
As Sasuke walked he thought of millions way to solve this and couldn't find another way but to leave this village ,leave his only friend and sensei... leave her.
The thought pained but he could manage he had been through worse, Sasuke nodded his headed he had decided now. There was nothing for him here and whenever he decided to give this place a chance it returned it with more pain.
It was clear for her now, his feelings were clear for her now. And she didn't came this morning nor did she came now.. Sasuke stopped with wide eyes what if she was at his door now? What if she came and didn't found him Sasuke looked up to the building then jumped from on building to another even though it wasn't that far from the hokage's building but he wanted to go as fast as possible.
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He found her, he finally found her she was there in front of his eyes walking in the street with her pink dress like she was in a fairy tale.
Her blonde hair flying behind her as she walk she made him in heaven. She stepped back showing her hand to him waiting for him to ask and of course he knew already what he should ask about but he pretended that he didn't and after a while he took her hand in his "did you buy this?" She took her hand back with a frown "No i didn't! Sai bought it for me". Now he knew why sai left the office in a hurry.
Ino asked again "don't you notice something?" She asked him this one and he thought that he would know fast? But he didn't it's a ring so what?
"Why did he bought it?" He asked and he regretted asking the way she blushed hard and avoided his eyes as she played with her ring "why else dummy?"
Shikamaru felt sick, wanting to throw up his feelings out, ah he know how the next few days would pass he had experienced it well. Shikamaru turned ignoring her loud calls in the busy street.
Ignoring all her questions about if he was ok or not
Even when sakura ran passed him he didn't turn
Even when he heard sakura's shouting her surprised he didn't turn he want to hide in his home for a few days.
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It's almost evening sasuke had packed everything he needed, the disappointment still hadn't left him yet it took longer than usual, she didn't came and he didn't see her in front of his door so she regretted it? Sasuke waited for the darkness to cover the sky and so he would leave
He didn't want to deal with anything anymore nor he want to deal with this place anymore it caused him nothing but pain, and he was too tired to hang on hope again, too tired to deal with his hunting thoughts that kept him awake many nights before
He wished that his brother had took him with the rest too he didn't want to live this life anymore
Sasuke headed to the door with the intention to leave but as the coldness of the outside hit him he realized that he couldn't step out at all, why?
