It was so unfair, they looked good together. These two distanced ,quiet ..She didn't know how to describe them because they weren't couple. She envied him even ,though the person he had feelings for wasn't meant to be with him but at least they looked good together. The opposite from her.. Sakura sighed as she stared at them again, if she wasn't in the same boat as sasuke she would find him betrayer, back stabber something like that, but she knew he had no control on himself.. She knew that very well. She was having a taste from the bittersweet fate as him. She wondered if sasuke could see how far hinata was? If he knew the end of his road with her. She wondered a lot of things even though they were similar they were different too. People might mistake hinata and sasuke as a couple if they first meet them. But her... she was in a different level. if she stood beside that person she could see what would happen. There were a lot of differences in everything "so unfair" she whispered that because she.. again, could see how far he was from her.
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He watched her leaving.. the sight of her back made him feel a little down. He wished for another minutes maybe hours but she said she had a lot to do but at least what she said lightened his mood "before you leave I want to see you" the sweetness she held in her words smoothed all the mixture feelings and doubts he had minutes ago he walked to that tree silently until he stood close to the person who was standing behind it "what do you want?" Her green eyes looked up from her feet to his dark eyes "you forgot the meeting?" He didn't but he couldn't walk pass the hyuga leaving her alone and he didn't want to hurt his head by talking to sakura so he stayed silent "Naruto is looking for you too" he knew that was a warning for him because Naruto could be the one instead of sakura he looked at her as she walked past him and he followed wondering about a lot of things. Why wasn't she mad? Did she thought of him as a betrayer? He didn't care really but her silence made him wonder and these thoughts kept him busy all the way but the most important thing he needed to know himself was "How did you know?" He wanted to know how and when he became inside this loop. She stopped walking and he saw how her shoulders raised and lowered with her sigh ,she knew what he was asking about so she hesitated at first but ....she turned slowly looking at the sun "When you started watching the sunrise every morning , I thought it was strange at first but one day I decided to walk towards you and when i got closer I knew" a sweet, small smile drew her lips "you were mumbling her name quietly over and over with a true smile on your face as you watched the sunshine spreading all over the village without noticing that someone was beside you" her eyes met his "don't you remember? Whenever we walked in missions you stopped and looked up to the sky to the sun and smile I guess she crossed your mind" was that how deep he felt for her.. he remembered though when he watched the sun he always repeated her name, tasting it as if it was a sweet flavor he wanted to enjoy everyday. It tasted different than everyone else. Smooth, sweet and quiet. He didn't know why he added quite but he found comfort in her name whenever he heard it. But he hadn't found the courage to call her by that like anyone else. He was still weak against it. He wasn't ready for his uncontrolled feelings. But he stood there and imagined it, calling her name ,then she would turn her head to look at him and those eyes would fell on his that would be the end of him. He couldn't help but to remembered someone who would have the right to call her every morning, every day and he wondered how he felt whenever she looked at him.
"Don't you hate me now?" He asked sakura suddenly and she chuckled shaking her head "I can't, that would be unfair"
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She opened the door of her home widely even though it was still on the day her home was dark. This was supposed to be where her happiness ,where she felt comfort, relieved. So why whenever she was out ,her home was the last place she wanted to be in like she wanted to find any excuse to be somewhere else but here. But to think about it everyone else were busy with their own life, even Naruto himself. Was that the reason why she kept going to the uchiha? The only place she could go to without getting the feeling that she was an intruder, He welcomed her actually, he didn't show it but she felt amazingly welcomed as if she was living there... with him. She shook her head to make the thought go away. But she had admitted it sometimes she had thought of going there in the late night. He was someone she feared to say a word to him before everything about him made her scared. Everything around him seemed dark his eyes, his glares ,his smirks everything... So why she found comfort in this darkness around him at that moment. Hinata didn't know how to organized everything about him in words. It was like she walked long distance until she lost her way but she wasn't scared this darkness held her tight and she felt comfort, refreshed in it and she didn't want to find the way again.. this darkness felt amazingly safe. The moment she turned her back to sasuke minutes ago depressed her, the thought of spending the rest of the day without telling him stories of her childhood, her teammates , her clan everything made her feel a little sad. But what was worse was she knew she would spend a week without seeing this.. strange friend? She questioned herself was he a friend? If he was then the other weren't friends she didn't feel the same thing towards them ,only him who own these feelings. Hinata clasped her cheeks reminding herself to clean the house to distract herself from her own thoughts.
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He walked through the streets without knowing where to headed. This whole village felt empty without her as if this place was new to him. It's been only hours and he already missed waiting for hours for her. She always took her time to dress, to do things he didn't know about, and he understood that so well because Ino is a girl after all and maybe these things what made everyone run after her. Because she knew how to own something. The difference between him and her is amazing. (What if she ended up with someone like me?) the thought crossed his mind suddenly and he stopped walking surprised that would unfair. She was everything beautiful, strong, smart , kind and above that all she was a kunoichi. She deserved someone who understood her well someone who would wait for her for hours without complaining someone who would know the smallest change in her someone who would treat her as she deserved. He thought she was a troublesome women before, he remembered when she got mad at one of her friends because her friend said that ino was the ugliest person inside and out that she had stolen her boyfriend. He had thought that it was ridiculous and said "what a drag?" Back then so what changed now? To think about it now he thought different how dare that supposed to be her friend to call ino ugly? Ino wasn't at fault it that girl's boyfriend fault for looking at Ino when he had someone else, it was ino's friend fault for throwing her boyfriend's mistake at Ino. Ino definitely wasn't at fault. Suddenly a memory of his sensei crossed his head when Shikamaru said again that dealing with Ino would be troublesome to him. Asuma had laughed looking at the blonde beauty and rested his hand on Shikamaru's shoulder "you know Shikamaru, Ino will be the connection of this team" he didn't take his word seriously but now he knew it was true after seeing her off Shikamaru had thought of passing by choji but it would be awkward so he declined. Without her team 10 would fade. Shikamaru reached the flowers shop, where she used to be there giving him flowers with different colors and kinds he sighed why is he acting as if it was the end of the world he was about to see who was her replacement but stopped when someone was standing in front of the door before him "Sai" the anbu looked at Shikamaru then smiled his usual smile "ah Shikamaru what are you doing here?" Shikamaru hided his hands inside his pockets and acted normally "I was passing by" he continued on his way before sai stopped "I already miss her" that was a whisper and Shikamaru didn't know if sai meant to say it to him or he was talking to himself and Shikamaru didn't know if he should response to that or stay quiet and walk away. "I do too" it came out suddenly it wasn't his intention to speak it out loud. He wanted to take it back he needed a miracle right at that moment and go back before minutes he would shut his mouth tight. The chuckled that came out of sai stopped his thoughts "you're lucky Shikamaru" then he left the genius alone in his thoughts.
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Sasuke walked in the darkness of the village to his place. The only thing he remembered was that they would leave tomorrow at the sunrise that was the only thing kakashi had told him about then he was dismissed. He climbed the stairs to his apartment and walked to the kitchen, he was too lazy to make dinner for himself. So that would be another night with an empty stomach he laid on his bed after he changed his clothes. "Before tomorrow I want to see you" he sighed then he remembered what Naruto said, how could this life be so unfair Naruto deserved to be happy and he thought that marriage would be best for him after he became the hokage but hinata... she deserved someone who could give her happiness, who would love her as much as he did, the line she wrote in her letter popped up in his head , "I would like you to enjoy the moment as I did" he wondered if he would ever feel the same thing, he rolled to his side his life wouldn't give him that chance ever
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Hinata sat in front of the mirror brushing her hair after she took a shower "So you're leaving tomorrow?" Naruto rested his head and nodded his head she saw the frown he was wearing "Naruto-kun?" He opened his eyes to look at her "is something bothering you?" He sighed deeply he remembered what his sensei had told them so again he nodded he was too tired to speak "What's it?" Her soft voice asked him she was worried he could tell "that teme" at that nickname something inside her jumped "Sasuke?" Again he sighed not knowing how to explain to her he thought she wouldn't understand "he is thinking of leaving the village again, not like before but" hinata stopped brushing her hair "he is thinking of traveling out of the village, he would pass by few days in the year" Naruto laid down without noticing hinata. This cold news she heard frozen her hands (does it mean that I won't be seeing him?) Everything in her was cold except for her eyes something hot burned them and she wouldn't show it so she just walked out of the room knowing that Naruto wouldn't notice.
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Kakashi was trying to finish the paper that laid on his table "just a few more and.." he threw the last paper "done" he stretched his arms he wanted to go home and just rest ,but how could he just leave when this person was standing out of the window in the balcony of his office so he opened the window wide and walked out and saw her back ,she was looking at the village "you should be home, is something wrong?" She didn't answer so he walked closer "I should be but this thought crossed and I don't know how it leaded me here" she didn't turn to him she was facing the village "what thought?" Kakashi tried to see what was bothering his student so much and he didn't know if he was the cause of it or not "tomorrow" she whispered but he heard "I would leave for this mission and I don't know if I would come back or not" kakashi was confused he didn't thought that it would worried her this much "you're one of the strongest sakura of course you will come back" sakura finally turned to him and the expression she held was unknown to him he couldn't read it "that not what I was talking about" her voice came lower as if she was disappointed in his answer "it's you" it came out just like that suddenly, cold and full of questions he raised his brows and before he spoke she did "I don't know if I would come back to you" she took a step closer to him "I don't want to leave suddenly without making a memory to remember" another step towards him and it made him a little nervous " with you" she was scared to leave a world he was in to live in another where he wouldn't be there even if it was the heaven she didn't want it she only wanted a place where he would be in she was so close now, so close that she could see that there was a hint of brown in his eyes ,that the scar on his eye was reaching under his mask and it was this mask that interrupted her she reached for it "I wanted to have something from you, something special only for me" she whispered and kakashi was too surprised to react so she held his mask and pulled it down with fear as if she was stealing something then she looked at his features to his nose, cheeks,jaw and his lips. Kakashi began to understand this situation he was so stupid to not notice before "Sakura I—" she had crossed the lines and stood to her tiptoe and had a taste of his lips it wasn't what she intended to do but she had lost all her strength in front of him she wasn't strong enough to just turn and leave. So she held his shoulders and went for it. Kakashi held her arms and pushed her a little his eyes had widened more than normal then when he saw the tears began to build in her eyes he softened a little "Sakura" he lost his words what was he supposed to say now? It was his fault for not noticing that before " I'm your sensei, I'm so old for you" she was facing the ground she knew that already "you deserved someone who could make you happy not someone who would complain about his weak knees" he was trying to lighten the atmosphere so she could at least smile, she didn't. "Am I so bad?" He sighed trying to find the right words "you're not sakura, it's me the problem" she wasn't trying to held her tears anymore she let them fall in her cheeks then she sobbed "Sakura" he whispered her name trying to calm her a little but it was worse for her to hear his voice she loved yet she didn't want to hear it right now "it wasn't my intention I swear, It just one day I loved to see you more than once in a day and you started to interrupt my thoughts and suddenly you were the only person I think of" she stepped back "I.. want throw these feelings aside and just ignore them, but they kept hanging on me" she held her shirt tight "it was like one day I had everything but when I looked at you I realized that these things I have don't matter to me as much as you and i.." she sobbed lost in her words "I just wanted you, only you" she whispered trying to fight the tears "I was scared to die , it not the idea of death what scares me it's the idea of living without you I don't want it" he chose to hear everything she had "I used to come to you whenever I had something bothering me but.." he rested his palm on her head "nothing changed now I'm still your sensei you could come to me whenever something bothers you" she looked up to him "I love you" she said that out loud finally it was killing her inside. Kakashi sighed "Sakura you're beautiful and young there's someone who would pass by the people just for you" she didn't want to hear that she wanted to hide ,anywhere but in front of him she just wanted a rest from life and hide in darkness.
