He couldn't step out, this person decided to torture him more, There was standing the cause of all this
Hyuga Hinata
With her usual smile and maybe wider smile holding lunch boxes with her hands "may come in?" She didn't wait for his answers she just walked inside
She looked at the empty apartment it didn't change at all it was still the same in the end Sasuke didn't have too many things in his place.
"I brought dinner so i came before the dark" She was walking inside his small kitchen like nothing happened and it pissed him off, acting like nothing happened pained him more than rejection.
Sasuke watched her with his furrowed brows as she prepared two plate for whatever she brought hinata sang as she took the plates from the closet
"Hyuga" his deep voice came from behind and she gasped and turned he was there standing close to her wearing his ugliest glare and she was nervous "sa..Sasuke-kun?!" He grabbed her hand and dragged her with him outside leading her to their favorite place the river.
And finally let go trying to calm himself he closed his eyes as he breathed slowly letting the nature do it job on calming him he turn to her she was staring confused at him still holding her hand
"Since you decided to act like nothing happened then i have the right to decide too"
Sasuke didn't think that this was so hard until he was standing in front of her, but what did he has?
He had been in a cage no wanting to stay and afraid to step out so after almost 2 years now he decided
He spoke despite all of his hesitation, he was afraid that she would turn and leave or reject him.
Now rejection seemed scarier than the ignorance but he didn't had any other reason for why he had dragged her here "you may know this already but I will say it out loud, a lot of people know this too but for some reason you didn't see it, so listen carefully hyuga I'm going to say this once" Sasuke breathed slowly trying to calm his heart, his breath trying to gather the self control he had and then he breathed out "I love you" he was studying her features carefully "I'm in love with you" how strange those words tasted in his mouth they were stranger to his dictionary of words and he didn't have many
"For the past 2 years I have been in love with you" he didn't know why he said it again but they tasted strangely beautiful he wanted to say it million times right now "I know that you think that I'm not capable of this neither did I thought that i was but i do" he does, loved her deeply for days for months and for years and it was surprising how this feelings never changed but they grew inside him like a flower
"I have been holding my self for 2 years hyuga even now I'm holding my self to not step to you and continue where we left last night, I know I'm wrong but what can i do?" He was useless, hopeless and powerless in front of her he suddenly remembered the first time his heart jumped when he saw her
He had denied it millions times but his heart betrayed him "i have denied myself, my heart. I have denied these feelings before when they were growing inside me i have ignored them pushed them aside and neglected them thinking that they will pass with the time but they didn't, they grew a new person inside me a whole different person who is standing in front of you now" this new person was weak, hangin into failed hope but he was alive.
"I finally recognized them and knew how much it was huge now, huge fault" that time was his first time spending a sleepless night with the hyuga inside his head he realized what was happening to him, that wasn't where he thought his life would be like. He didn't want to act like teenager but what could he do? "I have tried ,I swear to you with every god you believe in that i tried to push them aside and leave them somewhere else but they never backed So i gave up letting my feet drag me in the early morning to your door making Naruto my only excuse" he remembered the chilling wind of the morning as he stood there waiting for her to come out knowing he was early but he couldn't wait
"But i had promised that i would keep it a secret from everyone but they knew even though I kept my mouth shut"
He still didn't know how that nara knew "I avoided mentioning my feelings even when I'm alone I couldn't say your name without having to lose my breath ,but I failed again, they were showing in my eyes when I look at you, my body was reflecting what was inside me to the world but you didn't know" he didn't feel ashamed but he was afraid of them "you don't know how much I avoided being my self around you" Hinata stared at silently as he spoke what's inside him "you don't know how much you have effected me, it really took a lot of effort to stay calm whenever you were around me I felt these all and I know that I didn't have the right to do"
Sasuke wasn't aware of how much he spoke but he wanted it out and it felt amazingly good whenever a word came out of his mouth it felt lighter than before , he remembered every moment he shared with her with every word he said and it made these feelings grow again blooming inside his cold chest
Spreading life inside his dead body, returning his soul to this body he felt a live again
"I love you hyuga hinata with every passing hour and don't ask me when or how I don't know either but I want you to know this and i would leave if you want me to but—" he stopped when she stepped towards him reviewing all the possibilities in his head again
But she surprised him again he watched her walking towards him resting her palms on his shoulders to support her tiptoe on left her then he watched her pressing her lips to his offering the flavor again this time she wasn't drunk, she wasn't unconscious and she wasn't asleep she was wide awake she kissed him deeper making sure that he know her answers, her words too and sasuke didn't waste any chance in returning the favor making her know all the hidden secrets he had for her.
Hinata stepped back she whispered to his ears "now you have the right to call me hinata" he smirked as she giggled going back to sharing their hiden secret.
