LAW OF ATTRACTION

CHAPTER 39 : LAST RESORT PLAN

I'm back with songs to include in the chapter, today we have 'Don't Call Me Angel' by Ariana Grande, Miley Cyrus and Lana Del Rey for the last part of this chapter, go listen to it to put you in an Angel mood ;)

But today I'm not alone in this place. Someone is already there.

Actually, there are two people, and my heart skips a beat recognizing the voices immediately: Alex and Josh.

Their backs are facing me, so they haven't seen me coming, and I'm about to walk away, my heart too confused and not ready to face Alex, when I hear Josh's voice rises a little, stopping me in my tracks.

"Fuck! Bro, I don't get you! It's been what?–"

"Three weeks," Alex mumbles.

"Three weeks since I've told you she's single and you haven't done anything to get her back?! What are you waiting for?!"

They can't be talking about... I must be dreaming! My heart and my spiraling thoughts pick up their paces. I hide behind the large trunk of the tall tree right beside me, our tree, because they're sitting just a few feet away in our place, talking about me?! This day is definitely getting more and more surreal. But now I can't walk away; I need to hear more.

"Nothing! I've already told you I won't get back with Elena," Alex hisses between his teeth, and I can easily imagine the dark shades in his eyes.

I see Josh shaking his head. "So you're gonna stay like a depressed shit when you're crazy about her?!"

"Exactly! She wouldn't want me back anyway, after everything I did and said, and it's better that way."

My heart jumps higher than ever, almost doing a backflip, and I hold on for dear life to the tree that seems to stand through it all, like my love for Alex... My heart still wants him back even after everything.

"I don't think so, and if you weren't so stubborn!"

On that, I agree with Josh! I would gladly cheer on him, yet they can't know I'm there.

"Tell me you wouldn't do the same in my place," Alex retorts deadly serious. "If Mitchie was threatened because of you."

It feels like a punch, but not in the face or the stomach, in my heart. I stare at their backs, numb and paralyzed, as Josh seems at a loss for words for once.

"I'm sure there are other ways to protect her. Because maybe you don't see it, but you're hurting her too," Josh finally replies.

"You think I don't know?! It's hard for me too. Fuck!" Alex's voice cracks a little, and my swelled and confused heart breaks at the sound of it. "But I love her too much. She's too good and pure... I can't bring her down with me. I'd never forgive myself if..."

I want to go hug him tightly, comfort him, and never let go, but my feet are frozen on the spot as my heart is threatening to jump to Alex all by itself.

"I remember when you met her, you told me she was different, that she was more than just a good girl, that she had a 'sparkle of badass' inside. And man, now that I know her, I'd say it's a 'fire of badass'! You're more alike than you think!" Josh argues.

He is such a nice friend; he is really trying to help us while I just stand there paralyzed and helpless.

"I saw her with the knife to her throat. I won't change my mind. Now, can we talk about something else?" Alex's cold tone ends the conversation.

My heart is joggling furiously in my chest with all these mixed feelings. I'm overwhelmed with happiness and relief to know he loves me too, but also with irritation and resentment for how he has still hurt me, and guilt and regret for being mad at him when he's just been trying to protect me. Yet one feeling is outshining all the others: love.