Defined By Color 💕

(6) Letting Him Go

~ Kayla POV ~

I hid behind the bleachers to catch my breath. I can't be around him at the moment. He practically killed the poor boy. He probably didn't do anything. I thought I was changing him. I guess he was just acting all along.

Addy then spots me and runs up to me. I avoid eye contact and just continue to catch my breath.

"Kayla let me explain ok? He started the shit. He kept on talking about getting you and he wanted to be a cocky sun of a bitch, so I made sure that he would focus on himself instead of you."

I finally get my breath and I get the courage to look up at him.

"I don't even know what to think anymore. I mean, did he really say these things or was it your imagination and jealousy taking over?"

He scoffs and paces in front of me. He finally stops and looks at me.

"My imagination and jealousy taking over? Really Kayla? I can't believe you right now. My jealousy has nothing to do with this. Why are you getting on me when you should be getting on that Jayden kid? I mean unless your starting to feel things towards him."

"Are you for real right now?! Don't even start with that! You already know that I don't want him! And I'm defending him because he's the one with a bleeding nose! Your standing here perfectly fine while he is suffering!"

He looks at me with a 'wtf look'.

"So you only defend the ones that are hurt the most? Well guess what Kayla!? I'm hurt ok?! I'm fucking hurting inside!"

I scoff at that and I cross my arms.

"How are you hurting inside huh!? Please answer that because you are not making sense right now!"

"I'm hurting because I think that one day you'll just leave me! I love you but clearly your too dumb and blind to notice that!"

Not I have been bullying and that didn't hurt me, but when it comes from him, it hurts fucking bad. A tear slides down my face and he realizes what he did.

"Kayla I'm sorry ..." I cut him off.

"No Addison, just don't. I already know that people think that I'm dumb and too blind to notice things! I don't need you to tell me what I already know! People have been rubbing that in my face for years! I honestly didn't care when others called me that because they don't know me. But when you say that to me? It fucking hurts! I loved you! I'm tired of people always getting on me for absolutely nothing! I'm tired of always let people have their way! I'm changing that today! So thank you Addison for opening my eyes! Since I'm too dumb for you, stay the hell away from me!"

With that I storm pass him and walk home crying. Why does everyone have to be such a bitch to me when all I do is absolutely nothing?

~ Addison POV ~

When she walked away, my heart just broke into millions of pieces. She has balled up her feelings for years and she finally let them out. She even loved me back. I just made my true nightmare come to life. She's gone. A tear slips down my face.

Crystal and Jared were laughing until they saw me. Jared came up to me and pat my back while Crystal was looking around for Kayla.

"Bro, where's Kayla? What happened?" He asked me.

"She's gone. I lost her completely. I don't know what to do Jared." I force out before collapsing on the ground and letting the tears slip. He kneels down in front of me and rubs my back.

"You'll get her back. It's gon be alright. I'll make sure of it." He says in a concerned manner.

"No, we'll make sure of it. I'll talk to her. She texted me that she was walking so I'll go get her." Crystal speaks up before patting my back and kissing Jared. She walks away goes to find Kayla. Damn, just thinking of her name makes me want to kill myself.

~ Kayla POV ~

I got tired of walking so I stopped and texted Crystal where I was so she can come pick me up. Right as I sat down, it started to rain. I was only wearing black leggings and a red white so I was cold.

The rain got harder and colder by the minute and when Crystal finally found me, I was shivering. She gets out of the car and runs up to me. I get up and hug her hard and just break down. She rubs my back and says reassuring words in my ear.

She finally pulls away and looks at me.

"Come on, I'll take you to my place. I already texted your parents and they don't care."

We get inside the car and Crystal puts the heaters all on me and blazing high so I could get warm. The whole car ride was quiet except for my hiccups here and there.

When we make it to her house, we walk inside and her brother was playing the game with Jared. He looks back at us and smiles softly at me. He whispers something in Kyle's ear and pauses the game.

Kyle looks at me and drops the controller and runs up to me. He hugs my legs and I look down at him. I get down and pick him up so he can actually hug me. He rubs my back and continues to hug me. After a while, he finally pulls away and wipes my tears.

"Don't cry Kit Kat, you're too pretty to cry."

I chuckle at what he says and I thank him before pecking his cheeks and putting him down so he can play the game. Crystal then hugs me and looks me in my eyes.

"I already called the school and told them that you weren't planning on coming for the rest of the week. Don't worry because they didn't leave you any work for you. You can go in my room and sleep."

I hug her and thank her softly in her ear before pecking her cheek and walking upstairs into her room. I changed into some shorts and a 'fuck life' shirt I found in her closet. I figured it fit the mood so I put it on.

I got under the covers and I silently cried before crying myself to sleep.

~ Addison POV ~

Right after Crystal had left I explained to Jared what I did and he comforted me. Then I got tired and decided to skip the rest of the day and head home.

I thanked Jared for comforting me and I speed home. As soon as I get in the house, my mom looks at me and gets concerned.

"Baby what's wrong? Why are you crying?" 

I walk up to her and hug her. She hugs me back and that's when I break down.

"I screwed everything up with her. She's gone because of me." I whisper.

My mom pulls away and wipes my tears.

"It'll be ok baby. I promise you it will. Just give her time. You guys need some time off. Go head upstairs and I'll tell the school that your not coming going to school for the rest of the week." She pecks my head before I walk into my room.

I get in the shower and I stay in the shower longer than usual and just think about all of the fun Kayla and I had. Now we'll never get to have more memories like those again.

I get out of the shower, put boxers on and just go straight to bed. I need to rest after everything that happened. All I know is that she's gone.

Aii y'all so I freaking cried just writing this chapter because some of this stuff I can relate to. Don't worry, I'm good though. Hope y'all enjoy and don't forget to vote down below 💕🥺